I fell in love with this song when i saw it the first time. The show.. Starting i feel that its quite.. boring. BUT.. after that.. its quite interesting. :D

So ya. I got nothing else to blog le. Enjoy.

Today is the final match of the first round for netball East zone tournament. The schools that made it were SHS,SAC,DMN,AHS,PLMGS,.. still got 3 more. but i can't remember. x) There were only 3 courts being used in the 5 - 6 pm slot, so, the three of us went to play at the empty court. Somehow.. i lost my energy through it. Went home by taking bus 2. Waited wif huimin for bus 5 that took @#$$%#@ long to come. I reached home at ard 8. Been feeling emotional this few days. Now i feel like crying. I only got 8.5/20 for the E-maths test. Then the physics got 9.5/25. This wednesday got E-maths and Chemistry test. The only test i passed was the first grammar test.. i got 34/60. Im like so pathetic la. Im like dropping into a never ending hole. I have nothing that i excel in.. Wad will do of me as i grow? I have no idea. Maybe i might even fail my 'o' levels till i have to be dropped out of school. x( I feel like going to the beach and enjoy the breeze. Maybe it will relief my stress a little. Or if i cry at the beach, i will feel better. Wad to do? i got no pictures to put today. Im going off le. Till next time.

A-maths is difficult for me. I dunno wad to do wif myself. I seem so dumb and blur at the questions that were given to me. School has been stressful. Who was the idiot who said that secondary 3 can slack? Its worst than sec 2 la. Homework seem to be doubled and the tchers all seem so fierce. x( Everyday im so tired. Only ard 6 hours of sleep each day. How am i gonna survive when i eventually go up to sec 4? haha. emo-in in progress.... ... ... ok. done wif that. I shall dig some pictures from my sister's folder.

My sis very lucky hor? She gets to take a picture wif Corrinne May! Im jealous. haha.
Ah. This telephone was found at Terminal 3. My sis and i went to the open house just early this month? or late last month. i can't really remember. x)


This is the Christmas decoration of Terminal 3. Ok. that means i went last year end. LOL.

From another angle... LOL. Directions. I thot it was cool. haha. dun u think so?
I shall go make a movie. =) so byebye.

I stole some pictures that i took using my sister's phone. Finally after so long i got them in the comp. I so Zilian.. haha. Maybe i wun put it here. haha. See my mood. hehe.

Haha. I make my piglet look so sad. xD

And then.. I made it look so happy. Zzz

Then, i dolled it up using chocolate box ribbon.. Wahaha xD

Then.. the scenary i took today..

Hehs. And one of my zilian Picture today. xD

Ok. stop laughing. I dunno when i started being so zilian. haha. But.. i should be proud of myself. Why should i care what people think of me right? haha. So i, after thinking about it.., i decided to put one picture of that. hahahahaha. LOL! Im so lame. xD Hehs. I shall go blog surfing and play some games. 9 more days! xD

10 MORE DAYS!!!! Can't wait! haha. MY BDAE! xD Well, i said i will emo in my blog cuz boonfang dunwan tag me. no la. just kidding. haha. Today.. Yang lao shi never come. Half of my chinese class was playing some games that the loser have to do forfeit. Their punishment quite mean leh. I sit at my place.. Look out of window.. And stare into space. xD I got nothing to blog about today. Oh ya. I took dozens of pictures today. When i finally do get them from huimin and letitia.. then i blog all about the netball and the lunch. haha. Oh Still Hav! That time go Downtown East toilet took some pictures. Zzz.

Hehs. Can't really see me hor? =P

Haha.. LOL. We very pro hor? xD

Kk.. Gtg! ITS D-GRAY.MAN NOW! haha. TOODLES!

Im feeling quite down these days. somehow i feel so extra in everything. I feel so useless. During recess i go tag along with the whole grp. Yet.. I feel so extra among them. They talk among themselves. I feel so weird to barge in. My studies is in a mess. The maths test was horrible. The physics OPEN BOOK test i failed. Wad worst can it be? My life is in a mess as well. Im drinking Strawberry Milk every single recess and lunch. Im not doing my maths homework. Im not adapting to e2. I have no mood to study. Wads wrong wif me? I dun wan to be an extra. Do people hate me so much? I wanted to Let wanping sit with cheryl during history lesson. Then yunxun came and i seem to be the extra between him and wanping. Next time.. i shall sit right at the side alone. Lidat i wun be extra to anyone and they all can sit wif whoever they like. If im extra say so ma. i move lo. I very sad lor. its like totally loner can? I find myself getting quieter and quieter. I guess i have become such a bore. Im such a useless person. Even if wan tok to someone.. i must think for a few days before finally opening my stupid mouth to initiate the conference. To ask joyce's bday.. i took 1 week to think about how to ask. ... ... ... why am i lidat? Haiz. :( Why am i always so shy when it comes to a new class? Why do i always open up when everyone is about to separate? WHY?! T.T

I finally realised something. Dun say im emo-in. Cuz its the truth! Im an absolute loner! On monday had physics SPA.. With the MRT disruption.. Joyce was late lo. At first i thought she neva come. zzz. So, as usual, that three periods, go to physics lab.. When everybody sat down... The whole bench was MINE! zzz. [cuz obviously nobody want to sit wif me.] haha. Somehow.. dunno why. that yun xun sat beside me. mayb cuz the back bench no space. then wan tok to his shannon they all.. or mayb pity me. haha. zz. Stupid sihan and sydney. see me so lonely.. still laugh at me. =( Never come pei me still dare laugh! make me so sad. wanted to cry at that very moment lor. but i thot.. cannot larh. so paiseh to cry becuz nobody wan sit wif me right? in the end joyce still came. == so afterwhich for 1 hr.. i am all alone. only when i back in class.. then can tok to her. =P

Nobody seem to know the real me. Im more saint when im alone or wif family. More of my type of character. The more crazy type of gal that is hyper one. Ask my family.. they will say im a devil at home and an angel in school. hehe. Huimin should know my character.. cuz we'll of a same breed. =P.. Im a very sensitive person.. So dun step on my foot cuz if u happen to.. I will flare up at u. xD I can be very fierce one.. so dun u try to bully me. wo bu shi hao qi fu de! haha.

I dun noe how long will i take to bond well wif e2. But i only noe for now.. im very blur. Just like just now in class.. when i was helping huimin give out maths assignment.. I held on to Jackie's paper.. I saw Junwei and passed it to him. then he told me its nt his paper.. i blur and thought the paper was jasper's.. all the J's are making me blur! haha. Zzz..

gotta go find meanings le! haha. toodles.

Hehs, blogging again.. Stressed ar! Got maths level test, Chem level test and vocab& spelling test on Wednesday.. Today got ss pg 5, Maths assignment, Sra, Corrections of vocab.. And.. i can't remember the rest.. Today, went to kallang netball stadium to do duty.. Free show seh. next time i shall bring sweets and drinks there to do cip while watching the match. xD

E2 is getting noisier and more lively! [it was practically dead the first few days?]haha.. I liked Ms teo's Period! haha. Weihao, shannon and the asyrafi[idk how spell :P].. Like to bully her. hahaha.. Her lessons are the best man! Mr chia's lesson very boring.. He is like talking to himself one. haha. Mrs chan's lessons are.. okay la.. not that bad.. Just that i very scared of her. Ms Sultana.. Hmm.. I dun understand her lesson at all? hehs. Yang lao shi.. She.. Quite ok.. just that she very easy lose temper..

My memories of 2e4'07 are fading. Maybe i dun have very strong bonds with the class.. Afterall.. i was considered the quiet gal in there? [im only noisy to people that are closer.. Huimin should noe how noisy i am. hehs] Of course.. I wun 4get how our class got into so much trouble together.. The fans.. The door.. The windows.. haha.. I remember the spongebob on the Map! the photos u all pasted behind the map.. LOL! The laughter during Mr yap's period.. [uh hmm.. I remember that day when our opinions changed about mr yap.. uh Hm.. Adriel Helped him with his laptop and saw....] hahaha. Everard being scolded for something he did not do and ended up being the best physics student. The sadistic clan. The emoists. The nerds. haha. How we suan Zeng lao shi. Having fun during Mrs thang's literature period.. The Best Thing That I Will Remember.. First In Place Interclass Netball For Both years!!!! :) E4 Gals Rocked it man! hahs. I Will remember the jokers and sadists and emoist - Karkit, Everard, Weishin, Eccles[he always scold me for nothing!!].. Yep.. thats all? did i miss out anyone? Dominic? Sydney? Sihan? heh. Sydney and sihan i dun care lar. still in my class. Dominic.. hmm. dominating! =p.. And actually still got one. But i dunwan to say. He intro me Dota. Making me fall in love wif it. But i no money buy dota. So i can only play when i go lan. xD hahs.

Kaes. I should do something else. dunno why i write so much on e4. haha.

Been feeling lonely this days. Just glad that im beside joyce.. In that area, she's the only one i can talk to. I dun even tok to sydney that much. Haiz.. Been wanting to cry.. but i can't. I wan to act strong.. Yesterday, my class had a lot of fun. Laughter has been filling my class. especially during chemistry lesson. However, i dun feel into this class at all. it seemed as though my soul is out there. wandering.. alone. During recess.. I feel so lonely that i feel pathetic for myself. Everyone is getting further and further away from me. But 1 question lies. Are they the ones getting further from me or am i isolating myself away from them? I dun feel close to them anymore. Not even huimin. I dun feel close to anyone. Im a loner. Nobody cares about me. I can feel the loneliness. As though loneliness is clinging on me and i can't throw it off. Pathetic life. Pathetic world.

Some how, i decided to re-construct a blog. i was so emotional, i deleted my blog of 100+ posts through last year. I did not want to keep blog as it was quite troublesome. Firstly, i can't write my true feelings due to certain people able to view. I did not want to restrict as it will become talking to myself which is kinda.. dumb. So here i am, bloggin, in a blog with a new url.. =) Its a brand new year.. I deleted all the posts in the tagboard as well. It brings back many memories seeing the half half year's tags.. Though im sad.. As it brings back the memories when i liked him.. its still kinda heartwarming to recollect the past events. I hope i didn fall for another guy the same way i fell for him. I dun wan the exact same thing to happen to me again. very hurting one u noe. To be contented just to see and be near him. Yet no communication. Its kinda stupid la. I should just be braver. Or i'll have to be lonely.. for the rest of my life. ... Im having a bad throat. so i guess i should stop here. Probably blog on the weekends. so.. till then.