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Emo-ing In Progress...

I'm starting to wonder if my life have anything interesting to it..
Maybe.. I'm just a dull, smart-looking but dumb girl.
Romance in Drama serials don't happen real life.. Maybe once in a blue moon. I mean.. People don't undergo those near-die situation whereby you'll swear to cherish one another till the day we part..

I know exactly what type of person I am.
2 years ago.. Huimin said something about me.. which.. I'm finally accepting..
I'm probably a very gullible person.. I trust people too easily I guess.. :D
Just like how my mum tells me that a very bad guy is working as one of my colleagues and that I must beware.. I still feel that there is nothing wrong about that guy..

Anyway.. Will I even be able to find someone who will be there for me always.. looking out for me in every way he can.. care for me.. maybe someone who is a little chi dun.. (guys who are does extravagant things are usually playboys)
Someone who has eyes only for me will be nice.. haha. (In my dreams I guess)

I'm too quiet.. too not-sociable.. maybe I can be gong-gong 5 alrdy.. (only Madeline, Liting, Muihwa, Alvin, Weizhe and Zihao will noe the joke.)

Sometimes. when I see my friends going out for gatherings.. taking lots of pictures.. doing all sort of fun things together.. I long to be with them and be like them.. But I know.. If I really went for the gathering.. I would be the one.. choosing to be apart from all of them.. following them behind.. leaving early.. -( It happened too many times for me to know wad I'm like when I'm out with a group of people..)
I'm envious.. seeing how my primary school ex-classmates took 100+ pictures with each other.. doing funny actions.. They invited me.. But I was working..
Even if I wasn't working.. I'll might not go either.. since I know.. I'm just an invisible sheet.. They are just being courteous to ask me along..

Maybe my life was a failure.. Maybe I'll never find that perfect one for me..
But.. At least in my life.. I made two extremely good friends from each phase in terms of education.. Thank you to both of you for making my life feel less pathetic.. (there are many more.. but this two are the most xtreme ones.. :) )
Yang Xi Qing & Hui Min.. will never forget u guys..

I take back my words from last time..
Alvin & Weizhe aren't all that bad.. haha..
The three of them can become 'Alvin & the chipmunks.. ' - The aunties' favourite people in CNSQ. haha.

- Emo time ended -

Wonder why I feel so sad today..

X'mas Eve 2009

It's Christmas Eve~!

Made another blogskin to match the season...
Any comments on the picture or layout? Feedback to me yeah?
I wanna improve on my blogskin designs..

Will be celebrating Christmas by working happily with my colleagues tomorrow.. :D
Mui Hwa gave me a key-chain for X'mas.. :P

At least I'm gonna be "celebrating" x'mas with someone this year..
This makes 2009 something special..

"On my sixteen year of Christmas.. my True Love sent to me..
A crowd of nice good friends.... :D "

The TL whom I'm under @ work.. She is HORRIBLE!!! T.T

On the other hand.. The Cashier TL.. I thought she hated me.. Maybe she does.. But today.. she actually said.. "xiao mei mei.. Ni okay mah?"
Cant believe it.. If she bothers to talk to me.. I guess.. she doesn't totally hate me.. (maybe I'm nt even worth to be hated by her.. LOL)

Anyway.. Stacey Is coming back SOON!!! Cant wait..
Wonder how she has changed.. :D I should be receiving my pay Just in time for her arrival.. Hehe.. Can treat her to dinner. :)

Gotta Zzzzz...
-Starz04-

Tomorrow is my first off day!! (since the 8th of December.. that makes up almost 2 weeks of working non-stop)

Gonna slack @ home tomorrow~
Cant believe Zihao actually talked to me today.. It just shows how dao his two other friends are -
WeiZhe only talks to Madeline & sometimes Liting.. Alvin.. is just dao la.

There's this guy.. (my gosh.. I forget his name for the third time..)
----- after checking facebook -----
His name is Yang Bin. LOL
He smokes every single time after eating.. =.=" Haix..
But his every comment.. never fails to make all of us laugh.. he may be rude but somehow.. we aren't offended.. maybe its just the tone he uses...

I'm working on the afternoon shift on Wednesday.. 12 - 6pm.. Cool.. Been working 8 hours..
Wonder if I'm working part-time of full-time.. Zzz..

*yawns* Today need to complete 30 books.. tomorrow is the deadline.
I'm just so hard-working.. $_$
I shall start designing my blogskin for the new year 2010. :D
Looking forward to the start of another phrase for my life.

Today's my first day as a RA!!

I quit cashiering.. Learnt a good lesson....
I should always pursue something that I truly have an INTEREST in regardless of the pathetic pay.. Happiness is something that cant be bought with money.

I'm somebody who cant stay at one place all the time.
I need to travel everywhere.. Best to have minimal contact with people.
I cant stay in a boring job for long..

So... I've lost my direction again...
Is there actually a job which can travel everywhere, have minimal contact with people and have good pay @ the same time? :P
Doubt so.. People who knows me well.. any job prospects to recommend me? Haix

ps: I wanna change blogskin.. but the stupid photobucket isn't working.

- random -

Its the 14th!

Days pass extremely fast when you're busy all day long...
Today.. I went home @ 7.40pm.. Helped out with the shelving.

Sticked around all day with Mei Hua Jie, Madeline and Li Ting..
My poor assistant manager(Jeffrey).. walking around the stall all day to assist people.. Never even see him go out for lunch. Haha

There was another guy who was doing stacking with us.. An immature kid I guess..
Liting dared him to do something.. (I cant tell you) & he really did it..
But.. I must say.. He's quite a joker..
He walks like people owe him stuff lidat.. Haix.. Typical youngsters..

anyway.. gonna be busy till opening day..
Hopefully.. I'll be able to go to the graduation gig. haha. Ja mata~

- CNSQ -

aH~

Yesterday was team-building @ Changi Beach Club...
The games were.. on the whole quite well planned la. The Weather was good.
Balloon stepping.. *new version of scissors, paper & stone*.. Arranging ourselves within the line provided according to out birthday/Height (without talking)

Today Is the first day of Stall Preparation!
FP CNSQ is due to open on the 17th of December.. So we have exactly one week to do up the whole stall.. We cleaned the shelves.. then started to place the labels in their respective shelves.. (not finished yet) Tonight.. (which is now).. The stocks will arrive.. So... Our job tomorrow is to pack the items to their respective shelves..

Working from 9 - 5 is no joke.. I'm tired already! Haha
Had lunch by myself today.. Well.. I deserve it.. I chose to be alone anyway.

Was quite happy that one of the girls (my age) came up to me.. introduced herself and gave me a big smile. I thought she didn't want to associate herself with me. (I thought she was unfriendly :P) Ngee ann girl.. But I have forgotten her name.. (My memory has always failed me.. So forgive me)

Till now.. I only know that my branch manager is called William.. and assistant branch manager is called Jeffrey. =.="

My fellow colleagues? Sorry.. I can't remember a single of their names.. :P
Gomenasai.. Haha..

If you have no idea wad is CNSQ... don't ask me. I'm not telling..
Observe the letters CN & SQ.. You should be able to realise wad it stands for. :D

4th Day @ Work

Today is my 4th day @ work.

Aunty wasn't on duty today.. So I was attached to the younger one..
When she left for lunch.. I was attached to another one for an hour before I could go. But this time.. it wasn't an aunty.. Is more of an ah Boy.. =.="

Oh well.. I disturbed him too much on my second day.. Asking him wad is the price of this.. what is the price of that.. On top of that.. He knew about the mistake I made...
So.. I thought he will really dislike me.. So when I realise it was him that I was being attached to.. I went.. "OH MY GOD.... NOOOOOO!!!!"

But okay larh.. I think he isn't the type who would dislike someone just because of small little things.. Lol.. I'm the sensitive one..
He kept asking me to scan cuz he was tired.. Then I was like.. "ehh.. U just come here only!! I stand for 4 hours le leh.. "
If I was working with the aunties.. I probably would just shut my mouth and do work..
=.=" Maybe because he seemed friendly and too young for me to obey what he says. (though I should since he is a more senior than me)

Oh well.. Things were fine today.. At least.. I suppose so..
Tomorrow is TRAINING!!! Will get to see Laykuan, Melissa and Belinda again!
But that's probably the last time I'll get to see them.. Unless.. In school larh..
Been talking to LayKuan a lot..
I bet the question of "where are we gonna eat" will come back tomorrow. Haha.
Looking forward to that.

Tuesday I'll be back to work.. Then will move to the new outlet.. Hopefully.. The staff there is as nice (or better than) as the Staff in Simei. I'll miss them all.. Though I've only been here for 4 days.. I'm alrdy missing that aunty that taught me the first two days.. She is so caring.. (despite my errors.. She kept pushing me on.. Telling me its okay.. Encouraging me.. )

This will probably be my most memorable Holiday.. Haha..
Till Next time..

-SetBack-

2nd day of work: Made Nothing but Trouble.

Seriously.. I should have just listened to my mum.. : Dun Work.
I think I should just find a husband and be a housewife.

Reality finally hit me super duper hard.
Money is really hard to earn.. When you make a mistake.. You'll get scolded.. Definitely.
Maybe.. I am too pampered. When I face things like this.. I cant take it..
I will finally admit that I am WEAK.

I broke down today.. *Im such an idiot*
I hope I can find a hole to cover my face..
How many times did I say sorry to customers today? [countless]
Why am I so blur today? Feel like killing myself.

How am I going to survive in this cruel world?