Growing up - A process I'm not enjoying.
To be honest, I really dislike the life I'm having now. I don't want to stay out all day just because a perf. is round the corner. I want time to myself. A lot of time to myself. To just be at home, listening to my mum nag away about her colleagues, surfing the net. School doesn't permit a schedule that I can head home in time for lunch with my mum. The only comfort is that I'm going home immediately after school everyday.
Just because I'm in a committee, I promised to give it a try? I'm such a contradiction. I promised myself over and over again to quit asap, I even sent the e-mail out stating I am leaving, felt so proud of myself only to find myself trapped again just because my kind & sweet senior spoke to me on msn. I even cried.
& I'm now a very unhappy person. thank you. I have no one else to blame. Should have been firm on my decision. How could I have wavered. I'm an idiot. ):
Monday, 27 December 2010
Sunday, 26 December 2010
Xmas came & went... It's now time to look forward to the new year 2011 ^-^
Met up with the e4 clique last Sunday, didn't stay that long. Went Skating the next day with ah min. (:
Upcoming events,
27th - Project =_=
30th - meet up with the e2 clique [HIGHLIGHT: STACEY~ ^-^]
31st - may meet up with lenis & jingyi? or maybe des & sk? or maybe just alone @ home. ?_?
ah~ new theme for my blog [winter! (:]!
btw, my LJ is now officially the place for my v6 fandom while Twitter & Tumblr are for my randomness.
Perhaps occasional V6 fandom will appear here. well, my life is pretty made up of school, home, internet & v6 right? LOL~! ^-^
Met up with the e4 clique last Sunday, didn't stay that long. Went Skating the next day with ah min. (:
Upcoming events,
27th - Project =_=
30th - meet up with the e2 clique [HIGHLIGHT: STACEY~ ^-^]
31st - may meet up with lenis & jingyi? or maybe des & sk? or maybe just alone @ home. ?_?
ah~ new theme for my blog [winter! (:]!
btw, my LJ is now officially the place for my v6 fandom while Twitter & Tumblr are for my randomness.
Perhaps occasional V6 fandom will appear here. well, my life is pretty made up of school, home, internet & v6 right? LOL~! ^-^
Sunday, 19 December 2010
Stayed overnight at downtown east chalet for the first time [w/o family members]!!
The V6 SilentGalaxy [SG] Fan Club Chalet Xmas Gathering! x)
Had a great time drooling over Felly's & Peiwen's collection. Not to mention that VERY EXTREMELY KAWAII photo of MIYAKE in the Voyager Photobook that Felly had. >< *should have taken a picture with him!!!! >-<*
Anyway, I recently created a Tumblr account.
So pictures, from now on, shall be posted there. ^-^
http://starz04.tumblr.com/
Ta-da, the link, though I don't think anyone will bother lurh. haha! (:
Finally the holidays are here. though its only the mid-sem break and there are tons of tutorials plus revision to do.., I guess it won't hurt relaxing a little here & there. :x heh. ^-^
*drained from the chalet* slept only at 5 a.m this morning. then woke up at 8.30 to prepare for checkout.
heh. 休みます！
The V6 SilentGalaxy [SG] Fan Club Chalet Xmas Gathering! x)
Had a great time drooling over Felly's & Peiwen's collection. Not to mention that VERY EXTREMELY KAWAII photo of MIYAKE in the Voyager Photobook that Felly had. >< *should have taken a picture with him!!!! >-<*
Anyway, I recently created a Tumblr account.
So pictures, from now on, shall be posted there. ^-^
http://starz04.tumblr.com/
Ta-da, the link, though I don't think anyone will bother lurh. haha! (:
Finally the holidays are here. though its only the mid-sem break and there are tons of tutorials plus revision to do.., I guess it won't hurt relaxing a little here & there. :x heh. ^-^
*drained from the chalet* slept only at 5 a.m this morning. then woke up at 8.30 to prepare for checkout.
heh. 休みます！
Thursday, 9 December 2010
The presentations and project work for this term have finally come to an end. ^-^ hurray!
Now is time to focus on the CTs. Then it'll be the break!
I must remember to make xmas gifts & cards. haha~
The day after CTs would be the chalet! Gotta plan, plan & plan!
Been a crazy week with the ITB & OBSE presentations as well as the meeting's assessment [I was the chairperson. *sighs*].. LOL~ There's finally news from the Shanghai OIP trip facilitator.
The shortlisted & selected candidates would be informed around the end of December.
Hopefully.. I can be one of those to go. In the event that I am not selected, I will make use of the holidays to.. learn driving. x)
Haven't started on CT revisions. First paper is ITB! gosh.
Today is reserved for Jap. tomorrow night would be 'ITB party night'. Have to make it sound as interesting as possible so I will look forward to it. A date with ITB e-book & lecture notes.
On Saturday have to entertain my baby - Bstats Textbook.
haix. busy larh. Now need to call my Jap Notes and talk to it the rest of the night. (Y)
=3=
Now is time to focus on the CTs. Then it'll be the break!
I must remember to make xmas gifts & cards. haha~
The day after CTs would be the chalet! Gotta plan, plan & plan!
Been a crazy week with the ITB & OBSE presentations as well as the meeting's assessment [I was the chairperson. *sighs*].. LOL~ There's finally news from the Shanghai OIP trip facilitator.
The shortlisted & selected candidates would be informed around the end of December.
Hopefully.. I can be one of those to go. In the event that I am not selected, I will make use of the holidays to.. learn driving. x)
Haven't started on CT revisions. First paper is ITB! gosh.
Today is reserved for Jap. tomorrow night would be 'ITB party night'. Have to make it sound as interesting as possible so I will look forward to it. A date with ITB e-book & lecture notes.
On Saturday have to entertain my baby - Bstats Textbook.
haix. busy larh. Now need to call my Jap Notes and talk to it the rest of the night. (Y)
=3=
Sunday, 5 December 2010
Its been a crazy crazy week. It still is. ):
ITB project is consuming too much of my time, my tutorials are not done [have to get it done asap since I need time to study CT!]
Doing Jap homework now. I really don't want to fail Jap. T.T
Can't wait for the 2 weeks break after the CTs. I'm exhausted.
I just need some time to pamper myself. so. I decided not to go for BAMP. although it sounds fun, I just want and need some time alone. Doing what I want and what I like. ^-^
My poly clique has always been broken into 2 groups. from next year on, I doubt we will continue being one. lol~
Icen & Ziyan has chosen to take FIT whereas me & jaws took IEF. so, it's confirmed that we would be different classes.
oh no~ its 1142. ): *sighs*
ITB project is consuming too much of my time, my tutorials are not done [have to get it done asap since I need time to study CT!]
Doing Jap homework now. I really don't want to fail Jap. T.T
Can't wait for the 2 weeks break after the CTs. I'm exhausted.
I just need some time to pamper myself. so. I decided not to go for BAMP. although it sounds fun, I just want and need some time alone. Doing what I want and what I like. ^-^
My poly clique has always been broken into 2 groups. from next year on, I doubt we will continue being one. lol~
Icen & Ziyan has chosen to take FIT whereas me & jaws took IEF. so, it's confirmed that we would be different classes.
oh no~ its 1142. ): *sighs*
Friday, 26 November 2010
Today is a IS day~ Every Friday is.
I'm down with a bad throat.. which is turning into a cough. T.T
In fact, I've been coughing. ):
Today had dinner with my 2 sisters at Changi Airport TCC. [Jie fu back in SG after school trip to perth]
Jap ended early today. Kana Sensei had something on, so ended an hour earlier.
=3= not having a very smooth time with project work. ):
Have a lot of things to complete tmr & Sunday before school resumes as per normal again. ^-^
I'm down with a bad throat.. which is turning into a cough. T.T
In fact, I've been coughing. ):
Today had dinner with my 2 sisters at Changi Airport TCC. [Jie fu back in SG after school trip to perth]
Jap ended early today. Kana Sensei had something on, so ended an hour earlier.
=3= not having a very smooth time with project work. ):
Have a lot of things to complete tmr & Sunday before school resumes as per normal again. ^-^
Tuesday, 23 November 2010
min changed her blogskin~ Went to read her past posts from when we first knew each other.. memorable indeed.. In the first few years.. I can see my name on most of the posts.. haha~
Its so interesting to just stop and look into the past again.
How our thinkings matured, to remember the fun past that we had once forgotten.
I wonder what happened to me along those years.
Have I matured or it is just that I decided to avoid certain things.
Have I became a nicer person. or Have I just made myself vulnerable to the world.
Suddenly, I'm thrown into an adult world.. expectations of people from me, what I can or cannot do, consideration, responsibility, the cruel world. [its either you're in, or out.]
All these months of trying to transform myself into a good friend. Someone who is understanding. Someone who is there to listen to people. Is that good or bad.
I read a classmate's status on facebook the other day:
We behave differently when with different group of friends, not because we're acting or we are fake. We just have different comfort zone with different group of friends.
It feels true. haha.
I used to think that I'm well-liked. but early this year I realised, its not that I am well-liked.. its just that people don't bother. then I realise now that, I may not be someone whom is well-liked.. I can be someone who is being hated too. the world is interesting isn't it. (:
Its so interesting to just stop and look into the past again.
How our thinkings matured, to remember the fun past that we had once forgotten.
I wonder what happened to me along those years.
Have I matured or it is just that I decided to avoid certain things.
Have I became a nicer person. or Have I just made myself vulnerable to the world.
Suddenly, I'm thrown into an adult world.. expectations of people from me, what I can or cannot do, consideration, responsibility, the cruel world. [its either you're in, or out.]
All these months of trying to transform myself into a good friend. Someone who is understanding. Someone who is there to listen to people. Is that good or bad.
I read a classmate's status on facebook the other day:
We behave differently when with different group of friends, not because we're acting or we are fake. We just have different comfort zone with different group of friends.
It feels true. haha.
I used to think that I'm well-liked. but early this year I realised, its not that I am well-liked.. its just that people don't bother. then I realise now that, I may not be someone whom is well-liked.. I can be someone who is being hated too. the world is interesting isn't it. (:
Sunday, 14 November 2010
Yikes! 14 days into November and I didn't blog anything. =3=
On the 1st of November, v6 released their 2010 Asia Tour DVD and celebrated their 15th anniversary!!
V6 OMEDETOU GOZAIMASU!!! ^-^
Felt like changing my blogskin today! so TA-DA~!! my lavender inspired blogskin! ^-^
Had been quite down lately.. due to.. um.. some friend stuff.. =3=
Been exercising my brain cells a lot! thanks to the consideration about quitting Taiko. :x
*sighs* time flies really fast these days. its 11.11 PM now, haha!. Gotta at least read a little ITB before workshop tomorrow.
ps: I really dislike the OBSE lecturer cum tutor. =3=
On the 1st of November, v6 released their 2010 Asia Tour DVD and celebrated their 15th anniversary!!
V6 OMEDETOU GOZAIMASU!!! ^-^
Felt like changing my blogskin today! so TA-DA~!! my lavender inspired blogskin! ^-^
Had been quite down lately.. due to.. um.. some friend stuff.. =3=
Been exercising my brain cells a lot! thanks to the consideration about quitting Taiko. :x
*sighs* time flies really fast these days. its 11.11 PM now, haha!. Gotta at least read a little ITB before workshop tomorrow.
ps: I really dislike the OBSE lecturer cum tutor. =3=
Sunday, 31 October 2010
I feel so lonely. lol. whats new.
There are a zillion thoughts that ran through my mind all of a sudden and I'm so.. confused.
In poly, I really.. can't differentiate who I can trust and who I can't.. People seem so superficial and I no longer know what to do. The helpless feeling.. but I'm not helpless.. I can't say I am.. there are so many people whom are more helpless than me and I know it.
I don't know exactly what I want to do. Its as though I'm walking through an endless tunnel.
Bottling things up isn't good, but who can I ramble to? People care, I know they do, but they have their own problems and I don't want to add on.
If only someone can tell me what to do.
There are a zillion thoughts that ran through my mind all of a sudden and I'm so.. confused.
In poly, I really.. can't differentiate who I can trust and who I can't.. People seem so superficial and I no longer know what to do. The helpless feeling.. but I'm not helpless.. I can't say I am.. there are so many people whom are more helpless than me and I know it.
I don't know exactly what I want to do. Its as though I'm walking through an endless tunnel.
Bottling things up isn't good, but who can I ramble to? People care, I know they do, but they have their own problems and I don't want to add on.
If only someone can tell me what to do.
Thursday, 28 October 2010
The first week of semester two is coming to an end. (:
Next week onwards it will be full scale time-table.
*sighs* I'm already so shag after the first week.. how am I gonna survive the weeks that follow?
The modules seem really difficult to score.. Having a really bad feeling about it.
1. OBSE lecturer CMI. [worst still, he's my tutor]
2. MIEC lecturer talk like a bullet-train [I didn't absorb anything today]
3. BCOMM is gonna be difficult to score [AH!! week 3 presentation 10%!!!]
4. ITB has WRITTEN exam! and I thot it was all about IT. =3=
5. BSTATS lecturer SONNY PHUA.. cant stand him.. =.=
Waa. Can die. Japanese 102 isn't going to be easy to score.. Really need to allocate a time to study Jap too..
*sighs* 頑張ります!
Next week onwards it will be full scale time-table.
*sighs* I'm already so shag after the first week.. how am I gonna survive the weeks that follow?
The modules seem really difficult to score.. Having a really bad feeling about it.
1. OBSE lecturer CMI. [worst still, he's my tutor]
2. MIEC lecturer talk like a bullet-train [I didn't absorb anything today]
3. BCOMM is gonna be difficult to score [AH!! week 3 presentation 10%!!!]
4. ITB has WRITTEN exam! and I thot it was all about IT. =3=
5. BSTATS lecturer SONNY PHUA.. cant stand him.. =.=
Waa. Can die. Japanese 102 isn't going to be easy to score.. Really need to allocate a time to study Jap too..
*sighs* 頑張ります!
Wednesday, 20 October 2010
Tuesday, 19 October 2010
Friday, 15 October 2010
Today is an absolutely nutko day for me.
First, I took so long just to find a pair of black pants to fit my work attire, so I set off for work late.
While on the train, I almost missed my stop at City Hall cuz I was day-dreaming..
At City Hall, I wanted to climb the stairs up to exit of the mrt.. took 2 steps.. & I wondered why the stairs looked so different from the one I always climbed.. realised that I haven reach Orchard yet. ==
Being a C Shift worker.. I had to work with the supervisor named Craig today.. He looked stern, no smile, just serious.. He told me to take some stocks down.. But I went to pantry to search for the stocks.. to no avail.. I didn't check with Esther [The food department head].. I went down.. told him dun have.
I was probably the only idiot that didn't bring any stocks down at all after being up there for so long. ):
After that.. I felt so depressed.. Had my break alone feeling down..
I went back to work 10 min earlier.. cuz.. I was so depressed. LOL!
but.. Nicholas was worst.. He was totally depressed..
I dunno what happened.. but Jasmine told me that he has been like that since yesterday..
I could sense his sadden mood.. So after much consideration.. I went to ask him if he was alright.. he nodded at me.. but didn't say anything..
I folded a crane because I was bored..
To my surprise.. That guy that always dao-ed me asked me to teach him how to fold crane. *sighs* SEE! people talk to me only when they need me to do/help/teach something. *sighs*LOL!
After that.. Towards the night.. seeing Nicholas so depressed.. I wrote a message & folded it into a crane. LOL!
& I forgot what I wrote.. & I actually PASSED IT TO HIM! OMG! ==
He totally gave me the "huh" look. I'm so gonna be a joke tmr. Hope he doesn't avoid me or think that I like him cuz I think he's attached & I DON'T GO FOR ATTACHED GUYS OKIE! I NOT BITCH~! LOL! =3=
Anyway.. I was on HIGH from after 630.. & I realise.. Craig can be quite a funny guy & nice to talk to.. HAH.
So.. He isn't as STRICT, as DULL, as STERN as everyone thinks he is.. hahahah~
oh well.. Its pass 12 alrdy.. a New day.. (= which means.. 3 more working days for me before I say BYE BYE to Marks & Spencer.. ^^ k. This is A LONG post.. D: hehe.
Made this post specially for huimin to read since she wanted to know what happened after I text her a super emo message. so this are the BEFORE & AFTER sending that emo message.. HAHA!
I wonder if he will read it.. or just throw it away.. hmm~ oh well.. who cares. xD
First, I took so long just to find a pair of black pants to fit my work attire, so I set off for work late.
While on the train, I almost missed my stop at City Hall cuz I was day-dreaming..
At City Hall, I wanted to climb the stairs up to exit of the mrt.. took 2 steps.. & I wondered why the stairs looked so different from the one I always climbed.. realised that I haven reach Orchard yet. ==
Being a C Shift worker.. I had to work with the supervisor named Craig today.. He looked stern, no smile, just serious.. He told me to take some stocks down.. But I went to pantry to search for the stocks.. to no avail.. I didn't check with Esther [The food department head].. I went down.. told him dun have.
I was probably the only idiot that didn't bring any stocks down at all after being up there for so long. ):
After that.. I felt so depressed.. Had my break alone feeling down..
I went back to work 10 min earlier.. cuz.. I was so depressed. LOL!
but.. Nicholas was worst.. He was totally depressed..
I dunno what happened.. but Jasmine told me that he has been like that since yesterday..
I could sense his sadden mood.. So after much consideration.. I went to ask him if he was alright.. he nodded at me.. but didn't say anything..
I folded a crane because I was bored..
To my surprise.. That guy that always dao-ed me asked me to teach him how to fold crane. *sighs* SEE! people talk to me only when they need me to do/help/teach something. *sighs*LOL!
After that.. Towards the night.. seeing Nicholas so depressed.. I wrote a message & folded it into a crane. LOL!
& I forgot what I wrote.. & I actually PASSED IT TO HIM! OMG! ==
He totally gave me the "huh" look. I'm so gonna be a joke tmr. Hope he doesn't avoid me or think that I like him cuz I think he's attached & I DON'T GO FOR ATTACHED GUYS OKIE! I NOT BITCH~! LOL! =3=
Anyway.. I was on HIGH from after 630.. & I realise.. Craig can be quite a funny guy & nice to talk to.. HAH.
So.. He isn't as STRICT, as DULL, as STERN as everyone thinks he is.. hahahah~
oh well.. Its pass 12 alrdy.. a New day.. (= which means.. 3 more working days for me before I say BYE BYE to Marks & Spencer.. ^^ k. This is A LONG post.. D: hehe.
Made this post specially for huimin to read since she wanted to know what happened after I text her a super emo message. so this are the BEFORE & AFTER sending that emo message.. HAHA!
I wonder if he will read it.. or just throw it away.. hmm~ oh well.. who cares. xD
Thursday, 14 October 2010
4 more days to go~
Seriously speaking.. Though I'll really glad that my contract is ending on the 18th.. I may actually miss some people there.. Wati.. Jun.. Nordin.. maybe Melody.. hahah! and of cuz the nice temp staff working along with me.. Angela & Nicholas. Hopefully I'll see them around in School! Yes yes.. the three of us are from NP! hahah!
On the other hand.. The other 2 temp ones.. Jasmine & Benjamin.. One SP one NYP.
Jasmine is nice & pretty.. but I can feel we aren't on the same frequency.. Benjamin is just pure unfriendly [to me~ ):] Oh well.. not that I care.
Tmr I'll be on the same shift as Nicholas. Awesome. ^^
Timetable is out.. ): so far.. I alrdy noe about 6 people whom is in my class. *sighs* worrying.
I was surprised when Desmond & Saikiat expressed their concern over my msn pm. lol! I guess I've been posting too many emo pm.. oh well.. but I really appreciated it.. (=
I shall look forward to next week then! <3 All the outings with awesome people. ^^
Seriously speaking.. Though I'll really glad that my contract is ending on the 18th.. I may actually miss some people there.. Wati.. Jun.. Nordin.. maybe Melody.. hahah! and of cuz the nice temp staff working along with me.. Angela & Nicholas. Hopefully I'll see them around in School! Yes yes.. the three of us are from NP! hahah!
On the other hand.. The other 2 temp ones.. Jasmine & Benjamin.. One SP one NYP.
Jasmine is nice & pretty.. but I can feel we aren't on the same frequency.. Benjamin is just pure unfriendly [to me~ ):] Oh well.. not that I care.
Tmr I'll be on the same shift as Nicholas. Awesome. ^^
Timetable is out.. ): so far.. I alrdy noe about 6 people whom is in my class. *sighs* worrying.
I was surprised when Desmond & Saikiat expressed their concern over my msn pm. lol! I guess I've been posting too many emo pm.. oh well.. but I really appreciated it.. (=
I shall look forward to next week then! <3 All the outings with awesome people. ^^
Saturday, 9 October 2010
Tuesday, 5 October 2010
12 more working days to go.. fighting!
Though I'm half dead alrdy. 2 more working days to an off day! WHEE.
but after Thursday.. its the peak weekend. ): then.. its a 6 days wait to the next off.
but after the next off.. its a 4 days work day till the end of assignment! okie..
Endure Jin! ENDURE. for ching$ ching$.
Gotta save up if I wanna pull the plan for Hokkaido earlier! ):
and there's a Taiwan or Hong Kong plan next year to celebrate my dad's lunar 60th birthday! ):
Gotta save up save up!
Though I'm half dead alrdy. 2 more working days to an off day! WHEE.
but after Thursday.. its the peak weekend. ): then.. its a 6 days wait to the next off.
but after the next off.. its a 4 days work day till the end of assignment! okie..
Endure Jin! ENDURE. for ching$ ching$.
Gotta save up if I wanna pull the plan for Hokkaido earlier! ):
and there's a Taiwan or Hong Kong plan next year to celebrate my dad's lunar 60th birthday! ):
Gotta save up save up!
Friday, 1 October 2010
Today is Children's day.. Today is RESULTS day~
Got my first result slip.. I cried. Not in joy, but in depression.
Perhaps.. my personal expectations are too high. but I dun intend to change the target goals..
I know I did my best.. (=
I should stop comparing. because I am ME. and nobody can replace being me.
I love LEO club for giving me wisdom, and I love JTC for giving me wonderful friends like Ning and PN~ ^^
From now on, I know I will not fall to the ground because.. u all are right there supporting me. (=
Got my first result slip.. I cried. Not in joy, but in depression.
Perhaps.. my personal expectations are too high. but I dun intend to change the target goals..
I know I did my best.. (=
I should stop comparing. because I am ME. and nobody can replace being me.
I love LEO club for giving me wisdom, and I love JTC for giving me wonderful friends like Ning and PN~ ^^
From now on, I know I will not fall to the ground because.. u all are right there supporting me. (=
Wednesday, 22 September 2010
Its Mid-Autumn Festival! (=
^^ 月圆，家团圆!! ^^
Its time to eat mooncakes & enjoy the beautiful moon with people whom we hold dear to us~!!
Though it is best that we lead our every day like this one. ^^
aww.. I love snowskin mooncake.. the lotus filling kind. hehe.
(= next time I shall try to make myself. ^^
^^ 月圆，家团圆!! ^^
Its time to eat mooncakes & enjoy the beautiful moon with people whom we hold dear to us~!!
Though it is best that we lead our every day like this one. ^^
aww.. I love snowskin mooncake.. the lotus filling kind. hehe.
(= next time I shall try to make myself. ^^
Monday, 20 September 2010
Today, I went for the interview at Faro Recruitment.
Initially, I was afraid that it may be scam or something. But I guess I over-worried.
I got a job! Back to the retail industry.. Next time I should try admin~ xD
Will be working from the 4th - 18th of Oct. (= 2 weeks.
It is one of the best time periods I came across. ^^
At least I'll get to rest 1 last week before the start of Semester 2. Heh.
The downside is that I probably will miss 2 trainings of taiko again! >< Oh well. Got gain got lost eh? ^^
Initially, I was afraid that it may be scam or something. But I guess I over-worried.
I got a job! Back to the retail industry.. Next time I should try admin~ xD
Will be working from the 4th - 18th of Oct. (= 2 weeks.
It is one of the best time periods I came across. ^^
At least I'll get to rest 1 last week before the start of Semester 2. Heh.
The downside is that I probably will miss 2 trainings of taiko again! >< Oh well. Got gain got lost eh? ^^
Thursday, 16 September 2010
Home sweet home. (=
The camp will filled with a lot of fun activities. The one I love most was the race around SG, visiting the various communities [The visually handicapped, the elderly, the handicapped.. ].. They made us eat our packed lunch in complete darkness when we were at the visually handicapped.. It was an experience I would never forget. [Realising how blessed I was.. the feelings that ran through me at that time.. will last a lifetime..]
It was tiring, didn't sleep much during the camp.. so even now.. I'm tired. >< Gotta start finding a job! now that my days are more or less predictable.. my availability.. and such. (=
The camp will filled with a lot of fun activities. The one I love most was the race around SG, visiting the various communities [The visually handicapped, the elderly, the handicapped.. ].. They made us eat our packed lunch in complete darkness when we were at the visually handicapped.. It was an experience I would never forget. [Realising how blessed I was.. the feelings that ran through me at that time.. will last a lifetime..]
It was tiring, didn't sleep much during the camp.. so even now.. I'm tired. >< Gotta start finding a job! now that my days are more or less predictable.. my availability.. and such. (=
Sunday, 12 September 2010
Had the most absurd morning ever yesterday.
I woke up, looked at the clock, it was 12 plus. my phone was stalled and it showed the time as 7.45.
so I had to adjust everything. I was half asleep, so I thought I heard the door ring, jumped out of bed because I thought it was my jiefu [he doesn't have our house key].. turned out that it was my imagination. there wasn't anyone at the door.
and guess what I saw, my sis was still in bed when she was supposed to go to WORK!
went to ask her why the heck is she still at home.. and her reply was.. "haven la! is it 8 alrdy?!"
I was like. "ITS 12 PLUS ALRDY!!!"
Yep. Just as anyone would guess right now, it was 8.05 AM. I didn't wear my specs.. so I couldn't differentiate between the 2 lengths of the hand shown on the clock. >< what an idiot I am isn't it? Hahah!
I woke up, looked at the clock, it was 12 plus. my phone was stalled and it showed the time as 7.45.
so I had to adjust everything. I was half asleep, so I thought I heard the door ring, jumped out of bed because I thought it was my jiefu [he doesn't have our house key].. turned out that it was my imagination. there wasn't anyone at the door.
and guess what I saw, my sis was still in bed when she was supposed to go to WORK!
went to ask her why the heck is she still at home.. and her reply was.. "haven la! is it 8 alrdy?!"
I was like. "ITS 12 PLUS ALRDY!!!"
Yep. Just as anyone would guess right now, it was 8.05 AM. I didn't wear my specs.. so I couldn't differentiate between the 2 lengths of the hand shown on the clock. >< what an idiot I am isn't it? Hahah!
Thursday, 9 September 2010
Yesterday marked the end of semester.. which means the 6 weeks holiday has begun.
will be looking closely at the NP job search website.. (= while I'm still young, should earn money for personal savings in case of rainy day. >< but dunno if can find job sia. shouldn't have signed up for the camp. ): Apparently, I should be working at Shangri-La Hotel as a Waitress from the 24th - 26th. But one of the training days clash with the camp.. so I dunno how. >< *sighs* Hence, I will be on the lookout. maybe I'll just go NTUC and work again.. [Eastpoint Branch (=] Having too much things to study is bad.. but having absolutely nothing to do except the computer.. is really boring and not meaningful at all. >< So, bottomline, I should work. (=
will be looking closely at the NP job search website.. (= while I'm still young, should earn money for personal savings in case of rainy day. >< but dunno if can find job sia. shouldn't have signed up for the camp. ): Apparently, I should be working at Shangri-La Hotel as a Waitress from the 24th - 26th. But one of the training days clash with the camp.. so I dunno how. >< *sighs* Hence, I will be on the lookout. maybe I'll just go NTUC and work again.. [Eastpoint Branch (=] Having too much things to study is bad.. but having absolutely nothing to do except the computer.. is really boring and not meaningful at all. >< So, bottomline, I should work. (=
Monday, 6 September 2010
Can't wait for the examinations to end..
2 More days.. ^^ and the the semester's end is marked.
Just one more paper. [Business Law]
The worst one because there's a lot of facts to memorize. x.x
I'm glad that the first semester is about to be over soon..
Time to take a break from studies.. before the start of the second semester. ^^
Yay~ *cheers*
2 More days.. ^^ and the the semester's end is marked.
Just one more paper. [Business Law]
The worst one because there's a lot of facts to memorize. x.x
I'm glad that the first semester is about to be over soon..
Time to take a break from studies.. before the start of the second semester. ^^
Yay~ *cheers*
Friday, 3 September 2010
2 down!! 2 more to go!. (=
Today, I left the examination hall early, so I went home myself.
Was extremely hungry so I went Burger King to buy onion rings. :D
The traffic lights turned red on me so I thought maybe I should have gotten my mum lunch so that she won't have to carry 2 packs of rice back but I was already on the way home so I thought why not I just heat up the food and the leftover rice. :D
Unfortunately, the rice was still cold even though I heated it in the steamer. so.. I thought. hey there's parmesan cheese in the fridge.. so I made BAKED RICE. hehe.
My mum said it was nice. Feel so proud of myself now. ^^
I'm proud of my mum too. She not only mastered how to answer her handphone, she also knows how to find her favourite korean drama[from PPStream] on the desktop!! She haven mastered switching the computer off though. :/ HAHA~
Tomorrow is MAEC~ after maec can play a bit.. after that on Sunday must start studying Business Law le. >< Good luck to Myself. hehehe. (=
Today, I left the examination hall early, so I went home myself.
Was extremely hungry so I went Burger King to buy onion rings. :D
The traffic lights turned red on me so I thought maybe I should have gotten my mum lunch so that she won't have to carry 2 packs of rice back but I was already on the way home so I thought why not I just heat up the food and the leftover rice. :D
Unfortunately, the rice was still cold even though I heated it in the steamer. so.. I thought. hey there's parmesan cheese in the fridge.. so I made BAKED RICE. hehe.
My mum said it was nice. Feel so proud of myself now. ^^
I'm proud of my mum too. She not only mastered how to answer her handphone, she also knows how to find her favourite korean drama[from PPStream] on the desktop!! She haven mastered switching the computer off though. :/ HAHA~
Tomorrow is MAEC~ after maec can play a bit.. after that on Sunday must start studying Business Law le. >< Good luck to Myself. hehehe. (=
Wednesday, 1 September 2010
- The day before start of exams -
Why am I here? BECAUSE.. Today is the release of V6 NEW SINGLE: Only Dreaming/Catch!
(= Extremely meaningful and awesome song.
'Only Dreaming' is about missing someone whom you had broken up with to the extend that you dream of him/her. A very sad mv.. so if you have time to spare and don't know what to do. Listen to this song yeah.
I am always very pleased to advertise for my darling v6, anytime, anywhere. Not that they need publicity since they already have a huge fan base in Japan/Korea. hehe.
Tomorrow is the start of the intensive 3 days exam, plus the last paper on the 8th. LOL~
Wish me LUCK~ (=
All the best for those whom are having the examinations too.
As well as those with the upcoming promo exams [JC people].
Love, Starz04
Why am I here? BECAUSE.. Today is the release of V6 NEW SINGLE: Only Dreaming/Catch!
(= Extremely meaningful and awesome song.
'Only Dreaming' is about missing someone whom you had broken up with to the extend that you dream of him/her. A very sad mv.. so if you have time to spare and don't know what to do. Listen to this song yeah.
I am always very pleased to advertise for my darling v6, anytime, anywhere. Not that they need publicity since they already have a huge fan base in Japan/Korea. hehe.
Tomorrow is the start of the intensive 3 days exam, plus the last paper on the 8th. LOL~
Wish me LUCK~ (=
All the best for those whom are having the examinations too.
As well as those with the upcoming promo exams [JC people].
Love, Starz04
Monday, 30 August 2010
Thursday, 26 August 2010
People whom actually bother reading this blog will probably think I'm crazy blogging so frequently when exams are as near as next Thursday..
Well.. I'll face it. I don't have a life so there is hardly a day where I'm not online.
My life revolves around the computers.. Sad case..
I'm actually feeling kinda sad right now.. But.. I don't know the reason why.
Okay.. I'm weird. (=
v6's 'Only Dreaming' Music Video IS OUT! Ken[Miyake] looks really fabulous there. Its awesome how great he looks at every angle. I can't help.. but day-dream about him every now and then. :D
There was once where I really dreamt about him.. It was the best dream I ever had. haha~
Time to study about the SG economy.. Sianz
Well.. I'll face it. I don't have a life so there is hardly a day where I'm not online.
My life revolves around the computers.. Sad case..
I'm actually feeling kinda sad right now.. But.. I don't know the reason why.
Okay.. I'm weird. (=
v6's 'Only Dreaming' Music Video IS OUT! Ken[Miyake] looks really fabulous there. Its awesome how great he looks at every angle. I can't help.. but day-dream about him every now and then. :D
There was once where I really dreamt about him.. It was the best dream I ever had. haha~
Time to study about the SG economy.. Sianz
Tuesday, 24 August 2010
I created a small study corner.. (=
A small portable table for my laptop and the other study table to write my notes.
Yeah~ I know.. Laptops are a distraction! but.. no choice.. I didn't print the lecture notes out the previous time and printing it now is kinda wasteful.. This is when self-discipline will come in rightt? :P
I opened all the related files and by staring at it.. I don't know where to start.. )=
HOW TO STUDY?!?!?!?! ahhhhH~
Time is running out~~~ AND I've been sleeping close to 12 hours a day!! Good Gosh~ D:
Tomorrow there's lunch gathering with the others at DTE.. still considering whether to go~ I guess I will.. O.o
Shall bring some notes to study.. ^^
A small portable table for my laptop and the other study table to write my notes.
Yeah~ I know.. Laptops are a distraction! but.. no choice.. I didn't print the lecture notes out the previous time and printing it now is kinda wasteful.. This is when self-discipline will come in rightt? :P
I opened all the related files and by staring at it.. I don't know where to start.. )=
HOW TO STUDY?!?!?!?! ahhhhH~
Time is running out~~~ AND I've been sleeping close to 12 hours a day!! Good Gosh~ D:
Tomorrow there's lunch gathering with the others at DTE.. still considering whether to go~ I guess I will.. O.o
Shall bring some notes to study.. ^^
Sunday, 22 August 2010
*sighs*
My first time cooking rice in the cooker.. Hopefully it'll turn out alright~ (=
I was so pissed at my sisters!!! One who refuses to wake up and the other who refuses to cook rice!
Usually she cooks the rice.. But I was so pissed at her laziness.. I googled for instructions and I went to cook myself. =.=" lol~ when anger fuels my determination~ sighs.. I really should learn how to control that short temper of mine towards my family. =.="
My first time cooking rice in the cooker.. Hopefully it'll turn out alright~ (=
I was so pissed at my sisters!!! One who refuses to wake up and the other who refuses to cook rice!
Usually she cooks the rice.. But I was so pissed at her laziness.. I googled for instructions and I went to cook myself. =.=" lol~ when anger fuels my determination~ sighs.. I really should learn how to control that short temper of mine towards my family. =.="
Saturday, 21 August 2010
Flag Day for The Lion's Home for the Elderly~~~
My second Leo Event and my First Flag Day!!! It was not only an event that allowed me to do a little something but also an event which exposed me to the different types of people in Singapore.
There are people who would ask for the donation's purpose,
there are people who would donate willingly without any questions,
there are those whom would only donate if you ask,
those whom give a hand signal to tell us that they don't want to donate,
and lastly, the ones I hate most, are those whom I approached and they ignored me completely, as though I was non-existent.
A donation drive is conducted to help people who are in need of assistance.
Its extremely okay that you don't donate. At the very least give us a response.. Isn't that the most BASIC courtesy or perhaps BASIC RESPECT you can show to a fellow human being?
I don't think I did anything to be treated this way - A non-existent being.
Overall, flag day was fun.. ^^ made a few new friends. OH and and!! I met a fellow Hai Sian who stays in the same area as ME!! hehe. (=
We chatted the whole 4 hours away~ awesome day~
After the whole Chinatown Flag Day thingy.. [got certificate wor~! ^^], I went home, then after resting a little while, I went out again, this time with my JTC-Taiko teammates. (=
The annual Japanese Summer Festival held at the Japanese Primary School [Changi - which is damn near my house] , I was kinda over the moon that my CCA mates had to travel like near 2 hours while I took less than an hour. Wahahaha. Its only one day of the year that I can feel that way OKAY! )=
The festival.. was awesome.. but... A lot of people~~ D:
The food was very expensive too~
Oh!Oh! we were offered to a 6 parts game: Matching, PingPong, Throwing hoops, Trivia Quiz, Falling cans and Chaptek!
1. Matching Game: Basically a competition with the 2, I vs Ben - I lost.. =.=", I vs Wei Hau, I almost lost.. but he was helping it to become a draw so we can both get the stamp.. haha!
2. PingPong Game: Is to throw the balls into a egg holder and form rows of at least 3.
3. Chaptek: Kick the chaptek 3 times within 20 sec.. [can drop on the floor then pick up and kick.. as long as its within 20 sec.. LOL!]
4. Falling Cans: Throw a Tennis Ball at the 6 pyramid-stacked cans. if 5 drop.. you win. [I threw.. but only 4 went down.. but she gave it to me anyway. :P]
5. Throwing Hoops: I owned at this game. :D its like the matching game, compete with another person~~ ^^
6. Trivia Quiz Game: We discussed answers, hehe.
SO!! the lucky draw.. I won a cup. Apparently, I was quite lucky. ^^
Yeah~ this is a long long post~~ >< so I shall stop typing. Legs breaking, Hands aching, Feel like sleeping. HAHA. SO till next time.~~
My second Leo Event and my First Flag Day!!! It was not only an event that allowed me to do a little something but also an event which exposed me to the different types of people in Singapore.
There are people who would ask for the donation's purpose,
there are people who would donate willingly without any questions,
there are those whom would only donate if you ask,
those whom give a hand signal to tell us that they don't want to donate,
and lastly, the ones I hate most, are those whom I approached and they ignored me completely, as though I was non-existent.
A donation drive is conducted to help people who are in need of assistance.
Its extremely okay that you don't donate. At the very least give us a response.. Isn't that the most BASIC courtesy or perhaps BASIC RESPECT you can show to a fellow human being?
I don't think I did anything to be treated this way - A non-existent being.
Overall, flag day was fun.. ^^ made a few new friends. OH and and!! I met a fellow Hai Sian who stays in the same area as ME!! hehe. (=
We chatted the whole 4 hours away~ awesome day~
After the whole Chinatown Flag Day thingy.. [got certificate wor~! ^^], I went home, then after resting a little while, I went out again, this time with my JTC-Taiko teammates. (=
The annual Japanese Summer Festival held at the Japanese Primary School [Changi - which is damn near my house] , I was kinda over the moon that my CCA mates had to travel like near 2 hours while I took less than an hour. Wahahaha. Its only one day of the year that I can feel that way OKAY! )=
The festival.. was awesome.. but... A lot of people~~ D:
The food was very expensive too~
Oh!Oh! we were offered to a 6 parts game: Matching, PingPong, Throwing hoops, Trivia Quiz, Falling cans and Chaptek!
1. Matching Game: Basically a competition with the 2, I vs Ben - I lost.. =.=", I vs Wei Hau, I almost lost.. but he was helping it to become a draw so we can both get the stamp.. haha!
2. PingPong Game: Is to throw the balls into a egg holder and form rows of at least 3.
3. Chaptek: Kick the chaptek 3 times within 20 sec.. [can drop on the floor then pick up and kick.. as long as its within 20 sec.. LOL!]
4. Falling Cans: Throw a Tennis Ball at the 6 pyramid-stacked cans. if 5 drop.. you win. [I threw.. but only 4 went down.. but she gave it to me anyway. :P]
5. Throwing Hoops: I owned at this game. :D its like the matching game, compete with another person~~ ^^
6. Trivia Quiz Game: We discussed answers, hehe.
SO!! the lucky draw.. I won a cup. Apparently, I was quite lucky. ^^
Yeah~ this is a long long post~~ >< so I shall stop typing. Legs breaking, Hands aching, Feel like sleeping. HAHA. SO till next time.~~
Thursday, 19 August 2010
This is bad... this is bad... this is BAD!!!
I didn't study a single thing today!!! okay.. maybe just the formats for POA. ~.~
Sometimes.. Speaking the truth will do you no good..
To be a little reserved about certain things may actually work much better.. (=
I'm still a small girl..
There are so many things in this world that I haven't learnt.. haven't seen.. haven't experienced..
With my little lifespan, I hope to be able to make a difference.. ^^ Big Talk, Small Actions. D:
Opps, should be the other way round. haha~ maybe a few more years down the road bah.. (=
Maybe then... ...
I didn't study a single thing today!!! okay.. maybe just the formats for POA. ~.~
Sometimes.. Speaking the truth will do you no good..
To be a little reserved about certain things may actually work much better.. (=
I'm still a small girl..
There are so many things in this world that I haven't learnt.. haven't seen.. haven't experienced..
With my little lifespan, I hope to be able to make a difference.. ^^ Big Talk, Small Actions. D:
Opps, should be the other way round. haha~ maybe a few more years down the road bah.. (=
Maybe then... ...
Sunday, 15 August 2010
I used to be very proud being in JTC - Taiko.
It seems my interest really died off eh? It is now nothing but an obligation.
The feeling is now insufferable.
... Unless I can truly tell everyone what I feel.. I can never lead a happy poly life.
Icen and Ziyan are truly awesome friends. Really.. But I always felt lonely with them. Afterall.. they always decide certain things and do things together.
I don't really anticipate being in the same class as them again. I had hoped someone could understand me. I haven worked with Jaws but somehow.. I feel I can trust her enough. But I can't bring myself to tell her things.
How am I supposed to tell her I had purposely forgone the zoo excursion? How am I supposed to say that I don't want to be in the same class as the other two? How am I supposed to tell her everything? I'm scared.
Same goes for my cca.. how am I supposed to tell Shining that I lost interest in the CCA and I no longer want to attend the trainings? I miss badminton. I was never meant for some cultural CCA. I never appreciated the culture and arts anyway. My first semester is totally screwed up. how?!?!
It seems my interest really died off eh? It is now nothing but an obligation.
The feeling is now insufferable.
... Unless I can truly tell everyone what I feel.. I can never lead a happy poly life.
Icen and Ziyan are truly awesome friends. Really.. But I always felt lonely with them. Afterall.. they always decide certain things and do things together.
I don't really anticipate being in the same class as them again. I had hoped someone could understand me. I haven worked with Jaws but somehow.. I feel I can trust her enough. But I can't bring myself to tell her things.
How am I supposed to tell her I had purposely forgone the zoo excursion? How am I supposed to say that I don't want to be in the same class as the other two? How am I supposed to tell her everything? I'm scared.
Same goes for my cca.. how am I supposed to tell Shining that I lost interest in the CCA and I no longer want to attend the trainings? I miss badminton. I was never meant for some cultural CCA. I never appreciated the culture and arts anyway. My first semester is totally screwed up. how?!?!
Friday, 13 August 2010
I wonder whats going on with me this few days.. Perhaps I'm confused, perhaps I'm dismayed..
Afterall.. The friends I made.. don't last.
The relationship I once had.. confirmed my belief that ever-lasting love don't exist in this world.
I'm starting to embrace the feeling of being alone.
In fact.. I'm starting to like being alone. ^-^
To drag myself out of the house for an outing.. its an uphill task. sometimes.. I'll walk out of the house to the lift and ask myself..what the heck am I doing? then I'll walk back to the house. haha. (=
Oh well~ ^^
Afterall.. The friends I made.. don't last.
The relationship I once had.. confirmed my belief that ever-lasting love don't exist in this world.
I'm starting to embrace the feeling of being alone.
In fact.. I'm starting to like being alone. ^-^
To drag myself out of the house for an outing.. its an uphill task. sometimes.. I'll walk out of the house to the lift and ask myself..what the heck am I doing? then I'll walk back to the house. haha. (=
Oh well~ ^^
Monday, 9 August 2010
Happy 45th Birthday Singapore~! (=
I'm really proud to be a Singaporean~
If there is a chance.. I hope to do something for you someday...
Diverting, I'm really upset by the national day programme: Asia Song Festival.
They didn't show the full thing. I'm very upset, angry and pissed off.
How can they not show V6?!?!?!?!?!?! Feel like sending in a complain letter. Cheat my feelings. >:(
Friends around me better not add oil to fire.
I DO NOT GUARANTEE YOUR SAFETY if you make brainless statements. >:(
Anyway~ (= Happy Birthday my Awesome Singapore. ^-^
I'm really proud to be a Singaporean~
If there is a chance.. I hope to do something for you someday...
Diverting, I'm really upset by the national day programme: Asia Song Festival.
They didn't show the full thing. I'm very upset, angry and pissed off.
How can they not show V6?!?!?!?!?!?! Feel like sending in a complain letter. Cheat my feelings. >:(
Friends around me better not add oil to fire.
I DO NOT GUARANTEE YOUR SAFETY if you make brainless statements. >:(
Anyway~ (= Happy Birthday my Awesome Singapore. ^-^
Tuesday, 3 August 2010
Have I lost my sense of moods?
Its hard for even me to decipher the mood I'm having.
Whenever I see him, I used to feel really sad that I could cry, but now, even when I see him with his gf, I don't feel anything. Its just a very numb feeling, but I know I'm okay.
When I see Icen and Ziyan together, the usual me would feel sad that I'm a little left out, but I don't feel it anymore. I just walk a little faster and it becomes okay.
Am I often so sad that I have become immune or have I matured?
I hope to think that I've matured. Haha. (=
ps: I wonder why funny people are tagging on my tagboard advertising some stuff.. =.="
Its hard for even me to decipher the mood I'm having.
Whenever I see him, I used to feel really sad that I could cry, but now, even when I see him with his gf, I don't feel anything. Its just a very numb feeling, but I know I'm okay.
When I see Icen and Ziyan together, the usual me would feel sad that I'm a little left out, but I don't feel it anymore. I just walk a little faster and it becomes okay.
Am I often so sad that I have become immune or have I matured?
I hope to think that I've matured. Haha. (=
ps: I wonder why funny people are tagging on my tagboard advertising some stuff.. =.="
Sunday, 1 August 2010
It was raining cats and dogs in the morning today!
The New Moon Big Walk was delayed for awhile.. but at least we got to walk.. (=
Initially.. really tough to find someone to communicate.. either they have their own clique, or they don't look really friendly.. haha. :x
Managed to meet a senior whom started talking to me. ^-^ her name is Jasmine I think..
She's really cute.. and friendly. Made the journey survivable. It was really cute how she and another guy was trying to persuade me to go for the Fusion Camp.. I would have gone.. But unfortunately.. I saw JTC camp first and had signed up alrdy. ):
Min talked to me today~ (=
Along the way I cried.. but I din tell her that of course. [but if she sees this she'll know.. lolx.]
It's not PMS. that I guarantee. LOL~
Tmr is my DSS test~ I don't intend to study~ so good luck to me tomorrow.
I'll focus on POA today~ while listening to BY2's songs.
Last week of school starting tmr.. As much as I'm relieved.. there's a little.. 舍不得 de feeling..
Okay. I know I'm typing broken English. But I can't remember what 舍不得 is in English...
Cham manz.. I think my memory is getting from bad to worst.. ):
and I'll be super malu. because I think I just sent an email to the wrong person. O.o because I couldn't remember who organised the event. BA_Comm or BAOC.. ><
The New Moon Big Walk was delayed for awhile.. but at least we got to walk.. (=
Initially.. really tough to find someone to communicate.. either they have their own clique, or they don't look really friendly.. haha. :x
Managed to meet a senior whom started talking to me. ^-^ her name is Jasmine I think..
She's really cute.. and friendly. Made the journey survivable. It was really cute how she and another guy was trying to persuade me to go for the Fusion Camp.. I would have gone.. But unfortunately.. I saw JTC camp first and had signed up alrdy. ):
Min talked to me today~ (=
Along the way I cried.. but I din tell her that of course. [but if she sees this she'll know.. lolx.]
It's not PMS. that I guarantee. LOL~
Tmr is my DSS test~ I don't intend to study~ so good luck to me tomorrow.
I'll focus on POA today~ while listening to BY2's songs.
Last week of school starting tmr.. As much as I'm relieved.. there's a little.. 舍不得 de feeling..
Okay. I know I'm typing broken English. But I can't remember what 舍不得 is in English...
Cham manz.. I think my memory is getting from bad to worst.. ):
and I'll be super malu. because I think I just sent an email to the wrong person. O.o because I couldn't remember who organised the event. BA_Comm or BAOC.. ><
Friday, 30 July 2010
Its my last BJ101 lesson today..
Did my reading and writing test within an hour and that was it. ): The last lesson of the semester.
He came into class in formal wear~! haha~ no I'm not telling you which 'he' I'm referring to.
Anyway, I probably won't be in the same class as him anymore. Too Bad~~ (=
Yue Liang meimei going Taiwan tomorrow. Gotta help her record lectures and tutorials. To be honest, I'm worried that the recordings will be of bad quality.. >< Hopefully everything will be alright. I signed up for a lot of events lately.. The New Moon Big Walk, Flag Day, 50 cents Miracle, I&I programme & the JTC annual camp.. Looks like a few of my Saturdays during study break are taken up by the community events.. Always have an urge to join as many events as possible but when the day before the actual event come.. the "why the heck did I make myself so busy for" thought comes in... haha.. but I'm sure.. If I survive through the "sian" thought.. I won't regret my decision of joining this events because its meaningful~~ (=
Did my reading and writing test within an hour and that was it. ): The last lesson of the semester.
He came into class in formal wear~! haha~ no I'm not telling you which 'he' I'm referring to.
Anyway, I probably won't be in the same class as him anymore. Too Bad~~ (=
Yue Liang meimei going Taiwan tomorrow. Gotta help her record lectures and tutorials. To be honest, I'm worried that the recordings will be of bad quality.. >< Hopefully everything will be alright. I signed up for a lot of events lately.. The New Moon Big Walk, Flag Day, 50 cents Miracle, I&I programme & the JTC annual camp.. Looks like a few of my Saturdays during study break are taken up by the community events.. Always have an urge to join as many events as possible but when the day before the actual event come.. the "why the heck did I make myself so busy for" thought comes in... haha.. but I'm sure.. If I survive through the "sian" thought.. I won't regret my decision of joining this events because its meaningful~~ (=
Monday, 26 July 2010
Stumbled upon By2's music videos and appearance on variety shows..
They are really talented - can sing can dance. To think they're probably just a year older? and they gave up 'O' levels for their passion.
Makes me feel worthless right now. I don't really have a direction.
Where's my passion? What am I gonna do? What's my goal?
Suddenly, I feel so down. ): *sighs*
They are really talented - can sing can dance. To think they're probably just a year older? and they gave up 'O' levels for their passion.
Makes me feel worthless right now. I don't really have a direction.
Where's my passion? What am I gonna do? What's my goal?
Suddenly, I feel so down. ): *sighs*
Sunday, 25 July 2010
Thursday, 22 July 2010
It wasn't right for me to skip my ah mm's funeral.
So I hinted to my mum that I wanted to go to at the very least pay my respects to her.
Some clarifications to be made - my ah mm is my dad's eldest brother's wife. (=
Met my relatives, lots of greetings made.
My third uncle, got to know him a little more today.
My second sis likes to 'scold' him for drinking and smoking. I used to think it was wrong to tease an elder like that, but he is really a joker. (=
I'm relieved. Life is really unpredictable. Saw a dead bird on the road today. Thank goodness none of the cars drove over it.. or I'll probably freak out.
Zuo ren yao kan kai yi dian.
You really won't know what's going to happen in the very next minute of our lives.
Don't be too calculative, selfish, petty with other people. Don't do things you'll regret. Don't live your life trying to be someone else or be so fake. There's always a reason why you're being born the way you are. Be yourself.
So.. I'll be myself and only myself.
I'll live my life for myself and not anyone else.
And to all my dearest friends.. Must take care of your health. Don't fall sick. (=
Studies are important.. but while doing all the work.. Please remember that you have to sleep. I've been hearing friends say how little they sleep a day. So please sleep.
For those who keep skipping meals, who keep getting gastric.. Please eat. Stomach is precious.. Don't let your acid eat the walls of your stomach. [don't be like me.. I had gastric the whole of last week because I hungered myself for too long. Finally decided that I should not save on meals. So I spent 7.10 today, bought snacks that I can put in my bag just in case I'm hungry in between classes.]
Bottomline, Just take care everyone. (=
Money is nothing without Health. The amount of studies you do is nothing without health as well!! SO remember that alright. ^-^
So I hinted to my mum that I wanted to go to at the very least pay my respects to her.
Some clarifications to be made - my ah mm is my dad's eldest brother's wife. (=
Met my relatives, lots of greetings made.
My third uncle, got to know him a little more today.
My second sis likes to 'scold' him for drinking and smoking. I used to think it was wrong to tease an elder like that, but he is really a joker. (=
I'm relieved. Life is really unpredictable. Saw a dead bird on the road today. Thank goodness none of the cars drove over it.. or I'll probably freak out.
Zuo ren yao kan kai yi dian.
You really won't know what's going to happen in the very next minute of our lives.
Don't be too calculative, selfish, petty with other people. Don't do things you'll regret. Don't live your life trying to be someone else or be so fake. There's always a reason why you're being born the way you are. Be yourself.
So.. I'll be myself and only myself.
I'll live my life for myself and not anyone else.
And to all my dearest friends.. Must take care of your health. Don't fall sick. (=
Studies are important.. but while doing all the work.. Please remember that you have to sleep. I've been hearing friends say how little they sleep a day. So please sleep.
For those who keep skipping meals, who keep getting gastric.. Please eat. Stomach is precious.. Don't let your acid eat the walls of your stomach. [don't be like me.. I had gastric the whole of last week because I hungered myself for too long. Finally decided that I should not save on meals. So I spent 7.10 today, bought snacks that I can put in my bag just in case I'm hungry in between classes.]
Bottomline, Just take care everyone. (=
Money is nothing without Health. The amount of studies you do is nothing without health as well!! SO remember that alright. ^-^
Sunday, 18 July 2010
A close relative passed away in her sleep this morning - my ah-mm.
Walking out of the bathroom, seeing my big sister's red eyes.. I knew something was wrong.
When she cried while telling me the news.. I didn't know how to react. Not because I was too stunned, but because my sis was crying and I did not know who exactly she was talking about. I couldn't even recollect how my ah mm looked like.
I'm a sinner for not knowing my own relatives.
When Tati's mum passed on, tears couldn't stop flowing.. yet my own blood-related ah mm. I had no emotions.
I feel so fake..
I wonder if heaven would forgive me. Judging that I never really had the chance to know them better. Or maybe I had, just that my two sisters were closer. My eldest sis was taken care of by her when she was young. Am I trying to console my pathetic self? ):
Walking out of the bathroom, seeing my big sister's red eyes.. I knew something was wrong.
When she cried while telling me the news.. I didn't know how to react. Not because I was too stunned, but because my sis was crying and I did not know who exactly she was talking about. I couldn't even recollect how my ah mm looked like.
I'm a sinner for not knowing my own relatives.
When Tati's mum passed on, tears couldn't stop flowing.. yet my own blood-related ah mm. I had no emotions.
I feel so fake..
I wonder if heaven would forgive me. Judging that I never really had the chance to know them better. Or maybe I had, just that my two sisters were closer. My eldest sis was taken care of by her when she was young. Am I trying to console my pathetic self? ):
Sunday, 11 July 2010
slacking away the weekend as usual...
saw a friend request by Matthew on fb today.. [our BAOC emcee]
not that we know each other, probably just random adding.
looking at his history, it is kinda inspiring.
His motto in life is that 'dreams are reality waiting to be realised.'
He went to BA for two years before switching to mass comm. I envy his determination. [If it was me, I would have completed it.]
Actually, I have no idea why I'm in BA. I'm probably studying for the sake of studying. Not much of passion.
I have no idea what my passion is. My passion in Japan isn't gonna put food on my table. lolz.
(= oh well.. *sighs*
saw a friend request by Matthew on fb today.. [our BAOC emcee]
not that we know each other, probably just random adding.
looking at his history, it is kinda inspiring.
His motto in life is that 'dreams are reality waiting to be realised.'
He went to BA for two years before switching to mass comm. I envy his determination. [If it was me, I would have completed it.]
Actually, I have no idea why I'm in BA. I'm probably studying for the sake of studying. Not much of passion.
I have no idea what my passion is. My passion in Japan isn't gonna put food on my table. lolz.
(= oh well.. *sighs*
Friday, 2 July 2010
Thursday, 1 July 2010
Its Thursday!(=
Currently @ BMGT Lecture now...
Sianz. The lecturer very naggy~ But I guess its supposed to be good for us?
She wants us to go to Start, Programs, blabla.
There's such thing as a desktop. hahahahah~ but thats for me only (=
See, I'm so hardworking. ^-^
An hour and 46 minutes to go.. then I'll have to discuss my bmgt project. )=
Its a LONG DAY~!!
Currently @ BMGT Lecture now...
Sianz. The lecturer very naggy~ But I guess its supposed to be good for us?
She wants us to go to Start, Programs, blabla.
There's such thing as a desktop. hahahahah~ but thats for me only (=
See, I'm so hardworking. ^-^
An hour and 46 minutes to go.. then I'll have to discuss my bmgt project. )=
Its a LONG DAY~!!
Wednesday, 30 June 2010
Considering the fact that I took 1day to study for each of the modules, I surprisingly did quite well for the common tests!
I thought I would score the best for POA, turned out that macroecons was better.
Result Listing:
1. MAEC 43/50
2. POA 84.5/100
3. BLAW 80/100
Borderline 'A's.. (: Hopefully my end of Sem would be this good.
Being an extremely competitive person, I hope to do better than my classmates. haha. Actions speak louder than words.. so, we shall see. (:
Ps: Looking forward to Saturday~ I hope it'll be a beautiful day~ ^-^
I thought I would score the best for POA, turned out that macroecons was better.
Result Listing:
1. MAEC 43/50
2. POA 84.5/100
3. BLAW 80/100
Borderline 'A's.. (: Hopefully my end of Sem would be this good.
Being an extremely competitive person, I hope to do better than my classmates. haha. Actions speak louder than words.. so, we shall see. (:
Ps: Looking forward to Saturday~ I hope it'll be a beautiful day~ ^-^
Friday, 25 June 2010
It feels good to be at home slacking, doing things at my own time and pace.
Was supposed to go to East Coast Park with poly peeps today. But I'm afterall not in their clique, so I thought it'll be super awkward. haha. It rained today, gave me a reason to decline going.
I miss sitting by the beach and watch the waves hit the shoreline. Does anyone want to go with me someday, somehow? I wanted to go Pulau Ubin with Min last week.. but she thought I was kidding. LOL!. So, GO WITH ME THE NEXT HOLIDAYS! HAHA!
Celebrated SK's birthday on Tuesday~ HAHA~ Am honored to celebrate with him on his actual day. xD looking back, it has been 10 years since I first met him. Though there isn't much memory of being in the same class as him for the first three years in primary sch. LOL~
Friendship between me, sk & des would probably last very long or even forever. hahaha~
Been cooking a lot in facebook the whole of this holidays.. in a flash of an eye, the holidays are ending!!!! D:
oh well.. I'll look forward to the next holidays then. 9 August. [though really, it isn't much of a holiday but a study month] LOL~
Was supposed to go to East Coast Park with poly peeps today. But I'm afterall not in their clique, so I thought it'll be super awkward. haha. It rained today, gave me a reason to decline going.
I miss sitting by the beach and watch the waves hit the shoreline. Does anyone want to go with me someday, somehow? I wanted to go Pulau Ubin with Min last week.. but she thought I was kidding. LOL!. So, GO WITH ME THE NEXT HOLIDAYS! HAHA!
Celebrated SK's birthday on Tuesday~ HAHA~ Am honored to celebrate with him on his actual day. xD looking back, it has been 10 years since I first met him. Though there isn't much memory of being in the same class as him for the first three years in primary sch. LOL~
Friendship between me, sk & des would probably last very long or even forever. hahaha~
Been cooking a lot in facebook the whole of this holidays.. in a flash of an eye, the holidays are ending!!!! D:
oh well.. I'll look forward to the next holidays then. 9 August. [though really, it isn't much of a holiday but a study month] LOL~
Sunday, 20 June 2010
mEi booked a chalet for the weekend, went to stay over on the first night.
Jiefu & her planning is great manz.. 3 pathetic people bbq-ing only. =.=" LOL~ but it was great.
It was afterall, the first chalet that I actually stayed over. (:
Looking back, I don't have much close friends. lol.
There isn't anyone else to blame other than myself. I chose to be quiet isn't it?
Always hoping that someone could understand me inside out.
Hoping that someone could tell what I was thinking or feeling with one look in my eyes.
I don't think its possible though.
I chose to be the insignificant one, relying on others to bridge the gap between me & other people.
I, myself, don't even try to talk to others, who am I to wish that others could try to talk to me right?
I'm such a dreamer.
In Daiko, without Shi Ning around, I feel so awkward and uncomfortable with the others. Just like strangers.
In Hai Sing, without Hui Min, its the same thing.
In TB26, I haven even found a bridge to anything.
I'm such a failure in life isn't it? Too much reliance on others.
What am I supposed to do?
Can anyone actually tell me?
Whenever I ask, people will just say, Just open ur mouth and talk larh. Anything also can. so difficult meh?
说得容易，but to me, its an uphill task.
I'm careful with my words cuz I'm scared of offending people.
There are times when I have a lot of things to talk to people, but sometimes 就是很多话说说不出口。
*sighs* ):
Jiefu & her planning is great manz.. 3 pathetic people bbq-ing only. =.=" LOL~ but it was great.
It was afterall, the first chalet that I actually stayed over. (:
Looking back, I don't have much close friends. lol.
There isn't anyone else to blame other than myself. I chose to be quiet isn't it?
Always hoping that someone could understand me inside out.
Hoping that someone could tell what I was thinking or feeling with one look in my eyes.
I don't think its possible though.
I chose to be the insignificant one, relying on others to bridge the gap between me & other people.
I, myself, don't even try to talk to others, who am I to wish that others could try to talk to me right?
I'm such a dreamer.
In Daiko, without Shi Ning around, I feel so awkward and uncomfortable with the others. Just like strangers.
In Hai Sing, without Hui Min, its the same thing.
In TB26, I haven even found a bridge to anything.
I'm such a failure in life isn't it? Too much reliance on others.
What am I supposed to do?
Can anyone actually tell me?
Whenever I ask, people will just say, Just open ur mouth and talk larh. Anything also can. so difficult meh?
说得容易，but to me, its an uphill task.
I'm careful with my words cuz I'm scared of offending people.
There are times when I have a lot of things to talk to people, but sometimes 就是很多话说说不出口。
*sighs* ):
Tuesday, 15 June 2010
Monday, 14 June 2010
I regret coming to Ngee Ann~ It was a bad move.
So I'm stuck in this school with a class that I hate that much for the next 8 weeks.
Looking at the other classes.. I'm stuck here with possibly horrible classes for the next three years~. woohoo~
I'm wearing this invisibility cloth over me.
Wonder who will actually take notice of me and acknowledge this presence..
Like an unwanted soul that is lingering around school, this world.. Craving for some attention but nobody bothers.
The heart hurts so badly I can actually feel the unbearable pain.
But so wad? I can only leave it be. There's no medicine I can take.~
The more I try to be happier person, the sadder I become~
The environment isn't helping.. In fact its making it worst. If I wanted a transfer now.. to SP/TP, will I succeed?
So I'm stuck in this school with a class that I hate that much for the next 8 weeks.
Looking at the other classes.. I'm stuck here with possibly horrible classes for the next three years~. woohoo~
I'm wearing this invisibility cloth over me.
Wonder who will actually take notice of me and acknowledge this presence..
Like an unwanted soul that is lingering around school, this world.. Craving for some attention but nobody bothers.
The heart hurts so badly I can actually feel the unbearable pain.
But so wad? I can only leave it be. There's no medicine I can take.~
The more I try to be happier person, the sadder I become~
The environment isn't helping.. In fact its making it worst. If I wanted a transfer now.. to SP/TP, will I succeed?
Thursday, 10 June 2010
I study best when I have someone going through the list of things for the exams.
Should have realised that long ago..
Its redundant now..
I have no one to go through module topics with me...
My natural instinct is that once msn pops up with her name, I'll start asking questions.. Maybe because its the exam period.. so I keep doing that. I'm an idiot. I'm not even close to her.. shouldn't have done that.
Seriously.. I should just shut up (be it face-to-face, on msn, facebook or sms) and learn to study myself and keep things to myself. ...
and stop spamming people's facebook wall with my daily status updates and crap.
I should just disappear. =.="
Should have realised that long ago..
Its redundant now..
I have no one to go through module topics with me...
My natural instinct is that once msn pops up with her name, I'll start asking questions.. Maybe because its the exam period.. so I keep doing that. I'm an idiot. I'm not even close to her.. shouldn't have done that.
Seriously.. I should just shut up (be it face-to-face, on msn, facebook or sms) and learn to study myself and keep things to myself. ...
and stop spamming people's facebook wall with my daily status updates and crap.
I should just disappear. =.="
Saturday, 5 June 2010
Coincidence or Heaven's will?
I created a Word Press account..(A year back or so)
I probably blogged on that site less than twice.. (duh. since blogger is my main blog site).. yet.. I had to think about revisiting the site, of all days, TODAY.. and blog something..
After which... I read the post I made a year ago.. Blogging about how troubled I was.. over a ridiculous thing.. It was dated 5 June, 2009. Joke of the day for me.
Exactly the same date as today~ Exactly a year ever since everything started to take a wrong turn.
For once.. things are very clear to me... The thing I want most now.. is freedom..
I'm tired of this never-ending cycle.. I want to leave Singapore.. stay abroad for a few years.. Be it in Indonesia, Canada, Australia.. whatever. As long as there is a distance.. Far away from this place.
But when can I ever do that? Probably not within the next 5 years. Maybe by then.. I would have 咬舌自刭 le..
Many a times.. friends say that they'll be here for me.. whenever and wherever I need them. How many a times that they are actually there? We, after all lead two separate life. We can never be always there for one another.. Even if I would one day crumble into pieces.. How many friends would be there by my side to fix me?
Uncountable questions.. Yet no answers..... *sighs*
I created a Word Press account..(A year back or so)
I probably blogged on that site less than twice.. (duh. since blogger is my main blog site).. yet.. I had to think about revisiting the site, of all days, TODAY.. and blog something..
After which... I read the post I made a year ago.. Blogging about how troubled I was.. over a ridiculous thing.. It was dated 5 June, 2009. Joke of the day for me.
Exactly the same date as today~ Exactly a year ever since everything started to take a wrong turn.
For once.. things are very clear to me... The thing I want most now.. is freedom..
I'm tired of this never-ending cycle.. I want to leave Singapore.. stay abroad for a few years.. Be it in Indonesia, Canada, Australia.. whatever. As long as there is a distance.. Far away from this place.
But when can I ever do that? Probably not within the next 5 years. Maybe by then.. I would have 咬舌自刭 le..
Many a times.. friends say that they'll be here for me.. whenever and wherever I need them. How many a times that they are actually there? We, after all lead two separate life. We can never be always there for one another.. Even if I would one day crumble into pieces.. How many friends would be there by my side to fix me?
Uncountable questions.. Yet no answers..... *sighs*
Tuesday, 1 June 2010
Saturday, 29 May 2010
Very often, we only remember the hurtful things being said to us, the quarrels, the hatred and fail to look upon the happiness we once shared.
All of the talk of not knowing what we had till we lose it.
To date, I still don't have a clue to why you told me that, that night.
It changed everything within one night.
If you hadn't told me, I may not have a friend whom I can occasionally talk to or say hi to.
If you hadn't told me, I may not have found what she said in her post today.. hurtful in some way.
But because you did, I found a route to freedom.. and allowed time to patch that hole.
I struggled, but I guess I made it through. Though honestly, there are times I would just want to look at you.. to see how you are doing.. to see the people around you.. till when it strikes me that.. I have really no business to do so.
I actually wished I never met you on the train a few days before. It just proves to me that we don't have things to talk about. Or perhaps.. it had always been that way since the very beginning..
~.~
All of the talk of not knowing what we had till we lose it.
To date, I still don't have a clue to why you told me that, that night.
It changed everything within one night.
If you hadn't told me, I may not have a friend whom I can occasionally talk to or say hi to.
If you hadn't told me, I may not have found what she said in her post today.. hurtful in some way.
But because you did, I found a route to freedom.. and allowed time to patch that hole.
I struggled, but I guess I made it through. Though honestly, there are times I would just want to look at you.. to see how you are doing.. to see the people around you.. till when it strikes me that.. I have really no business to do so.
I actually wished I never met you on the train a few days before. It just proves to me that we don't have things to talk about. Or perhaps.. it had always been that way since the very beginning..
~.~
Tuesday, 18 May 2010
It seems I'm getting lazier to blog.. xD
Wad has been happening? - um.. Yesterday night.. I started doing POA at 11pm. Ended up sleeping at a few minutes before 6 am.. (: so.. I only slept for 1 hour.. xD
Miraculously.. My brain was sufficiently active while I did the POA graded quiz.. Got 18/20.. (:
Tomorrow is my group's turn to present for BLAW. Good gosh.. none of them fixed a timing tmr to do the ppt.. =.=" I guess I'll do a ppt myself just in case. Sian.
&!! I'll be Joining back the mass session of Daiko tmr!! Yipee!! :D
Japanese Lessons are getting tougher.. A lot of vocabulary to memorise.. Guess I'll reserve my Thursdays to study Jap.
There's tons of work I have to complete today.. wonder wad time I'll sleep today.. probably 12 plus 1.. ):
Its okay.. NEXT WEEK IS E-LEARNING WEEK~!! don't have to go school.. Just sit at home and stare at computer. XDD
Wad has been happening? - um.. Yesterday night.. I started doing POA at 11pm. Ended up sleeping at a few minutes before 6 am.. (: so.. I only slept for 1 hour.. xD
Miraculously.. My brain was sufficiently active while I did the POA graded quiz.. Got 18/20.. (:
Tomorrow is my group's turn to present for BLAW. Good gosh.. none of them fixed a timing tmr to do the ppt.. =.=" I guess I'll do a ppt myself just in case. Sian.
&!! I'll be Joining back the mass session of Daiko tmr!! Yipee!! :D
Japanese Lessons are getting tougher.. A lot of vocabulary to memorise.. Guess I'll reserve my Thursdays to study Jap.
There's tons of work I have to complete today.. wonder wad time I'll sleep today.. probably 12 plus 1.. ):
Its okay.. NEXT WEEK IS E-LEARNING WEEK~!! don't have to go school.. Just sit at home and stare at computer. XDD
Sunday, 9 May 2010
Thursday, 6 May 2010
What is life?
Some people view life as hell that we have to live through before we can go to heaven.
Some views it as a test by god.. to see if we deserve heaven or hell.
It really depends on the person himself..
I'm sick, having a bad throat and occasional fever & block nose.. but I have no right to say I'm suffering because there are people whom are in a worst state than me. When people are blinded by hatred, anger, sadness... they often lose their consciousness and when they are finally able to think straight.. its too late as they have alrdy hurt/lose the person whom they loved most.
Im so random right? talking about things that don't seem to connect. but this is why I'm typing all these:
My sister's senior undergone separation with his wife earlier this year.. and now she's gone.
Even though I may not know him or even seen him in my whole life.. I can imagine the amount of regret he has right now..
People often say.. must cherish one another when we're living.. Yet how often do we really cherish the people around us? in a week, how many times would u have thrown your temper at your family members over trivial matters? How many times would you ignore them? How many times would we just sit down and realise how much our parents have aged thanks to us for making them worried..
I dunno when I'll leave this world.. But before I leave.. I do hope that one day I wun throw my temper for small tiny matters.. and act only when thinking straight..
Btw, depressed people stands a higher chance of getting cancer! So don't be depressed ppl! Stay happy, healthy and crime-free! ^^
PS: I was on mc today!! Had a day of from school! felt really GOOD! :D
Some people view life as hell that we have to live through before we can go to heaven.
Some views it as a test by god.. to see if we deserve heaven or hell.
It really depends on the person himself..
I'm sick, having a bad throat and occasional fever & block nose.. but I have no right to say I'm suffering because there are people whom are in a worst state than me. When people are blinded by hatred, anger, sadness... they often lose their consciousness and when they are finally able to think straight.. its too late as they have alrdy hurt/lose the person whom they loved most.
Im so random right? talking about things that don't seem to connect. but this is why I'm typing all these:
My sister's senior undergone separation with his wife earlier this year.. and now she's gone.
Even though I may not know him or even seen him in my whole life.. I can imagine the amount of regret he has right now..
People often say.. must cherish one another when we're living.. Yet how often do we really cherish the people around us? in a week, how many times would u have thrown your temper at your family members over trivial matters? How many times would you ignore them? How many times would we just sit down and realise how much our parents have aged thanks to us for making them worried..
I dunno when I'll leave this world.. But before I leave.. I do hope that one day I wun throw my temper for small tiny matters.. and act only when thinking straight..
Btw, depressed people stands a higher chance of getting cancer! So don't be depressed ppl! Stay happy, healthy and crime-free! ^^
PS: I was on mc today!! Had a day of from school! felt really GOOD! :D
Friday, 30 April 2010
I signed out.. But somehow the browser din sign out. So I'll take it that fate wants me to post things on my mind. haha. My mum is gonna fetch me down to school lata. Gonna bring some hwk there just in case can do.
I'm gonna stay at the Loft @ 94 for the weekend. When I'm back to the East(on sunday).. Its my Mum's 58 birthday! (:
I wonder how camp is gonna be like.. Shi Ning and me are the only two girl freshies for the camp.. =.="
Sometimes I'm sad for no particular reason.. & sometimes I can be so active.. Like singing (softly la) outside LT22 while waiting for LT24 to be opened.. Lol.
Anyway.. I should pack my camp stuff.. & my Japanese class notes if nt later I'll be rushing then I forget this forget that.
P.S: I hope I won't fall in love again. ^^
I'm gonna stay at the Loft @ 94 for the weekend. When I'm back to the East(on sunday).. Its my Mum's 58 birthday! (:
I wonder how camp is gonna be like.. Shi Ning and me are the only two girl freshies for the camp.. =.="
Sometimes I'm sad for no particular reason.. & sometimes I can be so active.. Like singing (softly la) outside LT22 while waiting for LT24 to be opened.. Lol.
Anyway.. I should pack my camp stuff.. & my Japanese class notes if nt later I'll be rushing then I forget this forget that.
P.S: I hope I won't fall in love again. ^^
Tuesday, 27 April 2010
School - I have great classmates. Justin tries to bond the class together: going for lunch as a class before heading for lecture.. Claudsen can be quite a good friend. My clique in class prob is with Icen, Jocelyn and Ziyan(?) Sometimes my partner would be Denise.. Wadever..
I dunno wad to do with myself. Trying to gain attention by certain ppl. Being all sensitive when so&so deleted me on fb when I never even talked to him before..
I'm not a lonely in poly. I know that.. But I feel lonely. or perhaps.. in the exact terms.. I feel empty.
I joined so many CCAs. reaching home only after night has fallen. my weeks are extremely filled. only my thursdays and alternate mondays are free. On free days.. I do homework.. fulfills my time isn't it? But is that wad I want?
Btw.. who says POLY is SLACK?!?!
Its not slack at all. JC peeps has PI, PW.. Poly peeps have endless PW.. never ending explanatory questions, Tutorial hwk that stuns students.. Come on larh. JC = Poly.. We're all tertiary students so dun give dumb EXCUSES to make yourselves sound smarter than poly peeps or wadever.
I'm like a kid.. so please.. can somebody gimme some attention?
I dunno wad to do with myself. Trying to gain attention by certain ppl. Being all sensitive when so&so deleted me on fb when I never even talked to him before..
I'm not a lonely in poly. I know that.. But I feel lonely. or perhaps.. in the exact terms.. I feel empty.
I joined so many CCAs. reaching home only after night has fallen. my weeks are extremely filled. only my thursdays and alternate mondays are free. On free days.. I do homework.. fulfills my time isn't it? But is that wad I want?
Btw.. who says POLY is SLACK?!?!
Its not slack at all. JC peeps has PI, PW.. Poly peeps have endless PW.. never ending explanatory questions, Tutorial hwk that stuns students.. Come on larh. JC = Poly.. We're all tertiary students so dun give dumb EXCUSES to make yourselves sound smarter than poly peeps or wadever.
I'm like a kid.. so please.. can somebody gimme some attention?
Saturday, 24 April 2010
JTC Daiko Camp
Its Saturday!! I'm gonna start my full scale timetable from next week!! + All CCAs!! Oh gosh.. I'm gonna be so busy larh! Here's my programme for the entire next week:
Monday: Korean Club First Meeting (630 - 830 pm)
Tuesday: NP Strings (6 - 8PM)
Wednesday & Thursday: shd be nth.. unless thursday also have strings. ):
Friday - Sunday: Jap Class ( 6 - 8 PM) following that, JTC camp (till sunday 9am)
Next week must rush my homework manz. Plus.. Its my mum's birthday on Sunday!! It's been 3 years since I went for a camp.. Hope she wun be too worried abt me. ):
Oh ya.. Did I mention I joined the JTC - Daiko division? Im gonna be learning to play japanese drums! At the looks of it.. I think as time pass.. I will quit korean club. I shouldn't commit in so many things. I'm gonna take Pinyi as role model and aim to AD my modules. ^^
Hajimemashite!! Watashi wa YiJin desu. Watashi wa Ngee Ann Poly no Gakusei desu. Dozo Yoroshiku. Onegaishimasu!! ^^
Monday: Korean Club First Meeting (630 - 830 pm)
Tuesday: NP Strings (6 - 8PM)
Wednesday & Thursday: shd be nth.. unless thursday also have strings. ):
Friday - Sunday: Jap Class ( 6 - 8 PM) following that, JTC camp (till sunday 9am)
Next week must rush my homework manz. Plus.. Its my mum's birthday on Sunday!! It's been 3 years since I went for a camp.. Hope she wun be too worried abt me. ):
Oh ya.. Did I mention I joined the JTC - Daiko division? Im gonna be learning to play japanese drums! At the looks of it.. I think as time pass.. I will quit korean club. I shouldn't commit in so many things. I'm gonna take Pinyi as role model and aim to AD my modules. ^^
Hajimemashite!! Watashi wa YiJin desu. Watashi wa Ngee Ann Poly no Gakusei desu. Dozo Yoroshiku. Onegaishimasu!! ^^
Friday, 23 April 2010
Wednesday, 21 April 2010
CCA fiesta was held over the past two days.. and I realise that in NP there are SO many CCAs to join that I really had a hard time choosing.. x.x
I was pulled over to the Stage Art Club.. I wrote down my name anyway.. (IM NOT GOING!!)
The Christian Club keeps me informed abt all the meetings (I wrote my contact info down) though I'm not really interested.
Putting those CCAs whereby I have no interest in aside... The following are the CCAs I joined with interest:
1. Leo Club - A community service club which is based solely on events thus there are NO weekly meetings. ^^
2. Korean Club - Every ALTERNATE monday. Learn their culture, fav MV dances, etc etc. :D
3. NP Strings - I signed up to learn Violin. First meeting is next tuesday. This CCA is my top priority.
4. Japanese Tsubasa Club - Initially.. I looked at this umpteen times.. Decided not to join at first.. However, Yesterday.. I got so tempted.. I joined it anyway. =.= LOL!
School's Been GREAT! Except for those lonely moments. Like Huimin will have a group to follow in LSCT. (like a clique.) I haven found mine. I followed Madeleine's group on the first day. Initially followed Icen's Group on the second but hopped over to accompany Zhilin. Haix. Hope everything will be better.. ):
I was pulled over to the Stage Art Club.. I wrote down my name anyway.. (IM NOT GOING!!)
The Christian Club keeps me informed abt all the meetings (I wrote my contact info down) though I'm not really interested.
Putting those CCAs whereby I have no interest in aside... The following are the CCAs I joined with interest:
1. Leo Club - A community service club which is based solely on events thus there are NO weekly meetings. ^^
2. Korean Club - Every ALTERNATE monday. Learn their culture, fav MV dances, etc etc. :D
3. NP Strings - I signed up to learn Violin. First meeting is next tuesday. This CCA is my top priority.
4. Japanese Tsubasa Club - Initially.. I looked at this umpteen times.. Decided not to join at first.. However, Yesterday.. I got so tempted.. I joined it anyway. =.= LOL!
School's Been GREAT! Except for those lonely moments. Like Huimin will have a group to follow in LSCT. (like a clique.) I haven found mine. I followed Madeleine's group on the first day. Initially followed Icen's Group on the second but hopped over to accompany Zhilin. Haix. Hope everything will be better.. ):
Sunday, 18 April 2010
18th April
I have no idea wad to expect tmr.
Will I meet & make new friends?
Will I be happy?
Will I like school?
I wish to stay positive.. hehx. but kinda difficult for my character?
I should read my POA lecture notes.. I haven read yet. ): HAIX.
Will I meet & make new friends?
Will I be happy?
Will I like school?
I wish to stay positive.. hehx. but kinda difficult for my character?
I should read my POA lecture notes.. I haven read yet. ): HAIX.
Thursday, 15 April 2010
I feel kinda lonely.. Lonely in the sense that.. I am constantly seeking attention from my friends and never the other way round. Sometimes even I myself feel tat I'm being a pest and maybe they dun really wan to waste their time talking to me.
There are times where I wonder if my presence mean anything to anyone... (probably NO ONE in HaiSing I guess, maybe except Huimin, Fuxi & Sinyi lurhh)
Yesterday, went to parkway to meet my grp. When I reached the destination.. I didn't bother telling them that I reached. I waited & waited.. seeing if they would ask where I was.. I was alrdy half an hour late. & nth came.. Throughout I was wondering why I went in the first place.
Afterwhich.. I realised.. hey.. Charlene asked if I was going and Jiahui gave me a missed call.. small actions.. but somehow.. I was happy. dumb thing to be happy about.. I know.. After that when I left earlier.. Charlene offered to bring me to the bus-stop.. (i told her nt to since it was quite far away (: ) she helped me checked the buses nearby.. and asked me to call her if anything comes up.. I felt cared for.. heh. Jia hui, on the other hand, is very cute & enthu. :D The reason why I decided to go in the end was because of her.. hahax.
Oh well. Its my last weekend before I start being in the west most of my time. Haix
There are times where I wonder if my presence mean anything to anyone... (probably NO ONE in HaiSing I guess, maybe except Huimin, Fuxi & Sinyi lurhh)
Yesterday, went to parkway to meet my grp. When I reached the destination.. I didn't bother telling them that I reached. I waited & waited.. seeing if they would ask where I was.. I was alrdy half an hour late. & nth came.. Throughout I was wondering why I went in the first place.
Afterwhich.. I realised.. hey.. Charlene asked if I was going and Jiahui gave me a missed call.. small actions.. but somehow.. I was happy. dumb thing to be happy about.. I know.. After that when I left earlier.. Charlene offered to bring me to the bus-stop.. (i told her nt to since it was quite far away (: ) she helped me checked the buses nearby.. and asked me to call her if anything comes up.. I felt cared for.. heh. Jia hui, on the other hand, is very cute & enthu. :D The reason why I decided to go in the end was because of her.. hahax.
Oh well. Its my last weekend before I start being in the west most of my time. Haix
Tuesday, 13 April 2010
Scholarship
Geez.. Just applied for scholarship...
They'll probably think its very thickskin of me to apply with such a horrible L1R2B2. HAHA.
Anyway.. No harm trying. (:
They'll probably think its very thickskin of me to apply with such a horrible L1R2B2. HAHA.
Anyway.. No harm trying. (:
ah~ SICK!
Doubt I'll go for tmr's outing.. Went out to buy files and have lunch with my mum today.. less than two hours of being outside.. yet I felt so uncomfortable. ):
The first thing I did when I reached home this afternoon was to lie flat on my bed and sleep. Couldn't open my eyes.. T.T (It hurts)
Anyway.. I should rest well today & tmr.. Thursday I have to go and get my S & W T-shirt. I promised to go with her.. I wun shrug it off.
I'll see if I can buy my textbooks too.
I felt so sad yesterday.. but who cares right.. I shd stop being a pest le.. ^^
I dun wan to be someone whom is deemed as irritating.
Instead of trying so hard to be someone that is crazily enthu.. I shall stick to being the real me. (:
The mostly Emo, Sometimes siao, sometimes lame, me. :D
There isn't such thing as true love.. That only happens in fairytales.. (:
Its more of the understanding and care... & I believe that somewhere ard this world.. There is this one person who reads me like a paper, cares for me like a parent & loves me as a child.
The first thing I did when I reached home this afternoon was to lie flat on my bed and sleep. Couldn't open my eyes.. T.T (It hurts)
Anyway.. I should rest well today & tmr.. Thursday I have to go and get my S & W T-shirt. I promised to go with her.. I wun shrug it off.
I'll see if I can buy my textbooks too.
I felt so sad yesterday.. but who cares right.. I shd stop being a pest le.. ^^
I dun wan to be someone whom is deemed as irritating.
Instead of trying so hard to be someone that is crazily enthu.. I shall stick to being the real me. (:
The mostly Emo, Sometimes siao, sometimes lame, me. :D
There isn't such thing as true love.. That only happens in fairytales.. (:
Its more of the understanding and care... & I believe that somewhere ard this world.. There is this one person who reads me like a paper, cares for me like a parent & loves me as a child.
Saturday, 10 April 2010
BAOC 2010
Its the 10th of april.. Going 11th...
I'm starting to cough. so which means.. i'm sick. ==
Felt left out during BAOC.. can tell the SCs like who more than who.. so yah..
I'm a naturally born loner since I seem to love being alone.
I hate making new friends.. cuz It'll mean I have to judge the person.. to see who I can trust.
Aiyah.. dunno.. the world... is scary...
I'm starting to cough. so which means.. i'm sick. ==
Felt left out during BAOC.. can tell the SCs like who more than who.. so yah..
I'm a naturally born loner since I seem to love being alone.
I hate making new friends.. cuz It'll mean I have to judge the person.. to see who I can trust.
Aiyah.. dunno.. the world... is scary...
Monday, 5 April 2010
Thursday, 25 March 2010
I'm so bored.. I keep forcing myself to sleep. but I guess that is bad.. so here I am~ using the computer for the second time today to pass time... C:
okie dokie. I've been waiting for today for the longest time ever...
It has finally arrived. Have been drooling over v6 newest live performance for the past one day.. and will continue to do so till my family are all gathered at home packing cause they are HOT~! :3
Anyway~ don't think I'll be blogging for the next 2 weeks..
Maybe I'll blog if there is internet connection there. ^^
So~ I will be away from singapore from tmr till the 3rd of April yeah..
Will reach Singapore on the 4th of April tentatively 1am. c:
See u guys soon~ in school ~ :D
okie dokie. I've been waiting for today for the longest time ever...
It has finally arrived. Have been drooling over v6 newest live performance for the past one day.. and will continue to do so till my family are all gathered at home packing cause they are HOT~! :3
Anyway~ don't think I'll be blogging for the next 2 weeks..
Maybe I'll blog if there is internet connection there. ^^
So~ I will be away from singapore from tmr till the 3rd of April yeah..
Will reach Singapore on the 4th of April tentatively 1am. c:
See u guys soon~ in school ~ :D
Tuesday, 23 March 2010
Sunday, 21 March 2010
Ah~
4 days to go~
I have been looking forward to the coming week for the longest time...
It'll pass real fast.. so I'll cherish every single second..
To peeps in Ngee Ann~ Enjoy Ur Optional camps~! (provided if u signed up for them of cuz)
*yawns* I'll blog again soon!
I have been looking forward to the coming week for the longest time...
It'll pass real fast.. so I'll cherish every single second..
To peeps in Ngee Ann~ Enjoy Ur Optional camps~! (provided if u signed up for them of cuz)
*yawns* I'll blog again soon!
Thursday, 18 March 2010
Facial Products
As I have mentioned.. Facial products I have bought within the past 3 months, LOL! :
After I got my first pay.. I bought the whole series of Nuteen products.. It includes Blackhead remover, Cleanser, Pimple gel & Moisturiser. (: - Its not bad.. There was an initial effect.. but eventually.. the process of recovery got slower.. ): ($20+ for the whole set. - value for $$)
Next up: Cleanser & Toner
The Silkpro cleanser was recommended by a colleague @ work.. (it really didn't work much on my skin).. & the toner.. I picked the wrong one.. ): This toner contains alcohol which is not recommended as alcohol tends to dry up the skin.. And if it dries too much.. the skin will produce excess oil to combat the dryness.. Which is BAD.. ): Haix.. [$13.50 for toner, $8.80 for Cleanser]
This are the most recent ones I bought. Neutrogena cleanser was recommended by a lot of ppl: Bubzbeauty(Makeup guru on Youtube).. , the sasa person.. so on.. So I thought it must be very good.. The Dr. Wu was bought under pressure.. LOL!. [$45 for Dr Wu, $16 for cleanser? (I 4got)]
excluding all these will be the 2 masks from Sa-sa & the Oil control film.. LOL!
If one day.. I wake up with clear skin.. I'll post my facial routine here. haha. :D
emo-ing
heh.. Aren't using my laptop now.. so can't continue with yesterday's post.. (all the pics are in my laptop) (:
To those whom called yesterday..
My apologies.. Wasn't in a good mood so I ignored all the calls.
(I'll leave my phone on.. but I wun answer calls.. so if there's any impt things.. just msg me)
I'll be looking forward to next wednesday~!
I think I should be packing by then.. :D
Its amazing how time flies.. So just fly faster and slow down when I'm in Japan. ^^
I've been diligently memorizing Hiragana. (:
Hopefully I'm accepted in the module. *prays*
Stars.. I'm going crazy...
To those whom called yesterday..
My apologies.. Wasn't in a good mood so I ignored all the calls.
(I'll leave my phone on.. but I wun answer calls.. so if there's any impt things.. just msg me)
I'll be looking forward to next wednesday~!
I think I should be packing by then.. :D
Its amazing how time flies.. So just fly faster and slow down when I'm in Japan. ^^
I've been diligently memorizing Hiragana. (:
Hopefully I'm accepted in the module. *prays*
Stars.. I'm going crazy...
Wednesday, 17 March 2010
I'm gonna do a lengthy picture post this time.. (: A few things I wanna post.. So I may do it at one go.. or split it into two. haha
First up: Madeline's Bday~ The Locker Surprise!
All of our presents to her (:
Next: A random picture (Madeline & I)
& the two little piggies that represent each of us:
Its been a long time since I posted pictures isn't it? ^^
Next up: My Dad's Birthday (things I bought for him)
Yes! I bought a whole chicken from "ntuc fairprice finest" :P
& most importantly a cake.. (:Next in line:
6G'05 Gathering Jan 2010 (:
@ Sentosa:
(: Lazy to post all the Sentosa pics..
I wanna show you the number of face products I bought within 3 mths..
But I guess.. I will cont in the next post bahh. (:
Monday, 15 March 2010
Ah~ Its nearing the end of March!!
Today.. I went to my future school!! - Ngee Ann Poly.
The whole journey from the moment the train door shut @ simei till school.. was abt 54 min?
So actually.. I think I can make it to school within 1 & a half hours.. I better prepare my mp3 with all the songs and videos.. >.<" The train journey is very long. I almost fell asleep on the way there. (I alighted at Dover and took bus 74) Why I went to school today: To attend the software briefing.. The best part is that.. I went for the earliest slot.. so I ended up being the only one listening to the talk. LOL! I was trying hard not to laugh.. but the presenters saw.. haha. she was like.. "its okay.. u can laugh" then she giggled herself. haha. It was awkward.. sitting there alone in the whole theater listening to the student & the tcher.. haha. Haix.. cant wait for next monday (complete my whole enrollment process) AND MOST IMPORTANTLY.. CANT WAIT FOR NEXT FRIDAY~ Will post more details about my flight when Its nearer so that "readers" will not message me or call me when I'm away. (: I guess that shall be all for today~ :D
Today.. I went to my future school!! - Ngee Ann Poly.
The whole journey from the moment the train door shut @ simei till school.. was abt 54 min?
So actually.. I think I can make it to school within 1 & a half hours.. I better prepare my mp3 with all the songs and videos.. >.<" The train journey is very long. I almost fell asleep on the way there. (I alighted at Dover and took bus 74) Why I went to school today: To attend the software briefing.. The best part is that.. I went for the earliest slot.. so I ended up being the only one listening to the talk. LOL! I was trying hard not to laugh.. but the presenters saw.. haha. she was like.. "its okay.. u can laugh" then she giggled herself. haha. It was awkward.. sitting there alone in the whole theater listening to the student & the tcher.. haha. Haix.. cant wait for next monday (complete my whole enrollment process) AND MOST IMPORTANTLY.. CANT WAIT FOR NEXT FRIDAY~ Will post more details about my flight when Its nearer so that "readers" will not message me or call me when I'm away. (: I guess that shall be all for today~ :D
Thursday, 11 March 2010
Thank goodness School of BA is the FIRST building that we see while walking towards the convention centre. Good gosh.. The slope. Good luck to u Huimin! :D
If I get into school of IS.. then its good luck to me too..
I dun think I'll join Badminton~ its on saturdays! =.="
Anyway~ I'm gonna play with my new laptop when my sis comes home!!
hehe. NGEE ANN ROCKS! haha
If I get into school of IS.. then its good luck to me too..
I dun think I'll join Badminton~ its on saturdays! =.="
Anyway~ I'm gonna play with my new laptop when my sis comes home!!
hehe. NGEE ANN ROCKS! haha
Wednesday, 10 March 2010
ah~
Made 2 mistakes thanks to my itchy fingers..
First: I e-enrolled into my course 1 day earlier than my appointed date. [okay. thats nt really a mistake.]
Second: I ordered the notebook.. =.=" all I wanted was to see the payment page.. turns out that there wasn't a payment page.. and my order went right thru. ):
Well.. My sis is gonna write me a cheque tmr morning.. but she'll prob forget.. so I'll have to wake up early just in case. (: [the notebook is expensive!! ): ]
... haix ...
Bad day today.. but tmr will be a better one. ^^
Hope to see some ppl @ school tmr.. hopefully.. make some BA friends before orientation. ^^
So.. I'm done with enrollment.. (:
Now I'll be looking forward to 2 weeks later.. JAPAN~!
It'll be cold.. max temp 20 degrees.. min can be ard 3 degrees..
But I'm still happy. Its better to be cold than hot. haha!
Signing off~
Made 2 mistakes thanks to my itchy fingers..
First: I e-enrolled into my course 1 day earlier than my appointed date. [okay. thats nt really a mistake.]
Second: I ordered the notebook.. =.=" all I wanted was to see the payment page.. turns out that there wasn't a payment page.. and my order went right thru. ):
Well.. My sis is gonna write me a cheque tmr morning.. but she'll prob forget.. so I'll have to wake up early just in case. (: [the notebook is expensive!! ): ]
... haix ...
Bad day today.. but tmr will be a better one. ^^
Hope to see some ppl @ school tmr.. hopefully.. make some BA friends before orientation. ^^
So.. I'm done with enrollment.. (:
Now I'll be looking forward to 2 weeks later.. JAPAN~!
It'll be cold.. max temp 20 degrees.. min can be ard 3 degrees..
But I'm still happy. Its better to be cold than hot. haha!
Signing off~
Saturday, 6 March 2010
(: I wonder who actually reads all my posts.. lol.. nevertheless.. I'm still keeping this blog quite active.
Life has been boring.. But I never once regretted resigning..
Maybe I should start planning the things I can do next week.. Its tough accomplishing anything when my whole family is at home..
Lets see.. -summary of events-:
On Wednesday(10th March) I'll be doing my e-enrollment.. which would probably take like only.. 15 minutes?
Following that..
I'm going to view the campus on Thursday (11th March) with ah-min. (& their Notebook road show ^^)
Then I have absolutely nothing to do till the 25th of March.. (which I'll be busy packing my luggage I suppose)
6 - 8th April is my BA orientation..
Afterwhich.. I should be busy preparing for school I guess..
19th April will probably be the day where I stop whining about being bored... (:
I'm bored.. to the extent whereby I'm actually thinking if I should find a book to read. =.="
& I'm starting to have difficulties falling asleep.. AGAIN..
I slept pretty easily @ night when I was working.. like duh.. tired out from work.. hah.
Now that I'm back to being a school girl in holiday mode.. I'm having too much sleep. haha.
People have been telling me..
"Yijin arh.. Enjoy this long long holiday while you can.. "
I know the reason why people tell me this.. but somehow.. having nothing to do.. is really torturing..
Then they'll retort:
"Having nothing to do is better than having tons of things to do.. "
I won't know that.. till I experience that.. But by the time I experience it.. It'll all be too late. haha.
So I ask myself.. :" Have I been getting wiser or stupid-er each day?"
lol.. I still wonder.....
Life has been boring.. But I never once regretted resigning..
Maybe I should start planning the things I can do next week.. Its tough accomplishing anything when my whole family is at home..
Lets see.. -summary of events-:
On Wednesday(10th March) I'll be doing my e-enrollment.. which would probably take like only.. 15 minutes?
Following that..
I'm going to view the campus on Thursday (11th March) with ah-min. (& their Notebook road show ^^)
Then I have absolutely nothing to do till the 25th of March.. (which I'll be busy packing my luggage I suppose)
6 - 8th April is my BA orientation..
Afterwhich.. I should be busy preparing for school I guess..
19th April will probably be the day where I stop whining about being bored... (:
I'm bored.. to the extent whereby I'm actually thinking if I should find a book to read. =.="
& I'm starting to have difficulties falling asleep.. AGAIN..
I slept pretty easily @ night when I was working.. like duh.. tired out from work.. hah.
Now that I'm back to being a school girl in holiday mode.. I'm having too much sleep. haha.
People have been telling me..
"Yijin arh.. Enjoy this long long holiday while you can.. "
I know the reason why people tell me this.. but somehow.. having nothing to do.. is really torturing..
Then they'll retort:
"Having nothing to do is better than having tons of things to do.. "
I won't know that.. till I experience that.. But by the time I experience it.. It'll all be too late. haha.
So I ask myself.. :" Have I been getting wiser or stupid-er each day?"
lol.. I still wonder.....
Wednesday, 3 March 2010
I've finished filling up all the necessary forms as well as the IS enhancement programme form.. ^^
Will send it out soon.. hehe.
Been really excited about school which is going to start in a month's time..
After my Japan Trip.. I'll have to go for Business school orientation(6th - 8th April)!!
I was reading the details yestersay.. accessing all the student portals.. testing out my password..
to the extent.. I alrdy remember my student ID and password.. lol!
Can't Wait~
Will send it out soon.. hehe.
Been really excited about school which is going to start in a month's time..
After my Japan Trip.. I'll have to go for Business school orientation(6th - 8th April)!!
I was reading the details yestersay.. accessing all the student portals.. testing out my password..
to the extent.. I alrdy remember my student ID and password.. lol!
Can't Wait~
Friday, 26 February 2010
Yesterday was my last day @ work.. ):
My last day was the happiest day I've ever spent in FairPrice..
Ahmadi's humor.. Liting's cuteness. Zihao's rubbish :P .. Alvin's smile..
At the end of the day.. I cried.. =.=" The typical me..
I couldn't even step into the pantry room to take my own bag.. couldn't bear to say goodbye to everyone.
Had to ask Liting to help me take my bag and return the locker key + access card to the chief cashier.. -embarrassing-
I'm missing them alrdy.. But I guess.. the feeling will fade in time to come bah...
Gotta wait for the clothes to dry.. then make my way down one last time..
If fate permits.. We'll meet again some day.. (:
May all six of you find your other half in time to come.. Gambatte..
My last day was the happiest day I've ever spent in FairPrice..
Ahmadi's humor.. Liting's cuteness. Zihao's rubbish :P .. Alvin's smile..
At the end of the day.. I cried.. =.=" The typical me..
I couldn't even step into the pantry room to take my own bag.. couldn't bear to say goodbye to everyone.
Had to ask Liting to help me take my bag and return the locker key + access card to the chief cashier.. -embarrassing-
I'm missing them alrdy.. But I guess.. the feeling will fade in time to come bah...
Gotta wait for the clothes to dry.. then make my way down one last time..
If fate permits.. We'll meet again some day.. (:
May all six of you find your other half in time to come.. Gambatte..
Tuesday, 23 February 2010
2 More Days..
I'll have to tell my boss tomorrow that I'm resigning..
Ahmadi asked me when I was going to resign.. I told him 'soon'.. then he said: 'wa.. sad la.'
I'm starting to feel a bit sad.. All the nice & Funny people.. ):
To be honest.. Although I keep telling them.. 'I'll be back often!!'
I dun think I'll go back more than 3 times..
The first trip down is to return the uniform..
the second trip down will be Liting's last day..
the third trip will be when me & Liting go back one last time before school reopen..
I plan so nicely sia. lol..
I'll have to tell my boss tomorrow that I'm resigning..
Ahmadi asked me when I was going to resign.. I told him 'soon'.. then he said: 'wa.. sad la.'
I'm starting to feel a bit sad.. All the nice & Funny people.. ):
To be honest.. Although I keep telling them.. 'I'll be back often!!'
I dun think I'll go back more than 3 times..
The first trip down is to return the uniform..
the second trip down will be Liting's last day..
the third trip will be when me & Liting go back one last time before school reopen..
I plan so nicely sia. lol..
Saturday, 20 February 2010
Sunday, 14 February 2010
Tiger Year!
Just passed midnight~
My first post of the tiger year!!
To be honest.. I'm not having a good start of the new year..
Heard a very bad rumour in the afternoon on the last day of the ox year.. (I wun mention here..)
Besides.. I think I worked for too long le.. sometimes when they're late or din come.. will start to worry a little..
I have to get used to it somehow..
anyway.. The Year of Tiger new year resolutions:
(1) be happier.. less emotional.. more hyper.
(2) though I have no idea wads the exam format @ school.. Hope I'll attain good grades.. (:
(3) Exercise at least once a week..
so... GOOD LUCK EVERYONE~
not to forget.. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY~
For those who're single.. Hope you'll find ur loved one soon..
For those who're attached.. stay happy, sweet & faithful to each other. (:
My first post of the tiger year!!
To be honest.. I'm not having a good start of the new year..
Heard a very bad rumour in the afternoon on the last day of the ox year.. (I wun mention here..)
Besides.. I think I worked for too long le.. sometimes when they're late or din come.. will start to worry a little..
I have to get used to it somehow..
anyway.. The Year of Tiger new year resolutions:
(1) be happier.. less emotional.. more hyper.
(2) though I have no idea wads the exam format @ school.. Hope I'll attain good grades.. (:
(3) Exercise at least once a week..
so... GOOD LUCK EVERYONE~
not to forget.. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY~
For those who're single.. Hope you'll find ur loved one soon..
For those who're attached.. stay happy, sweet & faithful to each other. (:
Tuesday, 9 February 2010
Kawaii~
Richard told him to go upstairs to take pokka packet drinks down to the stall while I'm supposed to assist him.. the way he come up to me to discuss some things.. and the way he reacted when he couldn't find a trolley.. : "Zen me ban? mei you che!!!" .. the feeling.. cant be described.
At that point in time.. I was wondering whether I was supposed to help look for trolley too.
So I did.. And when I got one.. I waited for him at the store without him knowing. Pushing the trolley back and forth the hallway.. I acted like an idiot.. till he came running towards me while I was in the mid of pushing the trolley back to the stall to find him. ):
While he was pushing the trolley to the atrium.. he conversed with me about our to-be poly studies.. He confirmed with me the course I was posted to... and was quite surprised to know that we're in the same course.. He asked me why I hadn't picked TP.. and I was happy that he actually bothered asking. :D That one sentence.. Meant a lot to me.
He had also seen my status in facebook.. the fact that he mentioned it amazed me.
Furthermore.. His memory is good. He remember my first two choices and wondered why I got into business studies when I had wanted to put tpjc as second choice..
Although I know.. He talked to me because there were only the two of us around.. But that was enough to fill my memories..
I hope none of them will find this blog... though I know they aren't that lame to find it. (:
Wonder if I'll have the courage to take pictures with them on the last day of work.. Be it group photo or individual.. I hope to have an album of pictures @ my first workplace.
Hopefully.. None of them will ever find this blog. (:
I know they won't.. haha.. cuz they have better things to do. :D
Dreamland... isn't going to last long.. My last 2 & a half weeks.. ):
Richard told him to go upstairs to take pokka packet drinks down to the stall while I'm supposed to assist him.. the way he come up to me to discuss some things.. and the way he reacted when he couldn't find a trolley.. : "Zen me ban? mei you che!!!" .. the feeling.. cant be described.
At that point in time.. I was wondering whether I was supposed to help look for trolley too.
So I did.. And when I got one.. I waited for him at the store without him knowing. Pushing the trolley back and forth the hallway.. I acted like an idiot.. till he came running towards me while I was in the mid of pushing the trolley back to the stall to find him. ):
While he was pushing the trolley to the atrium.. he conversed with me about our to-be poly studies.. He confirmed with me the course I was posted to... and was quite surprised to know that we're in the same course.. He asked me why I hadn't picked TP.. and I was happy that he actually bothered asking. :D That one sentence.. Meant a lot to me.
He had also seen my status in facebook.. the fact that he mentioned it amazed me.
Furthermore.. His memory is good. He remember my first two choices and wondered why I got into business studies when I had wanted to put tpjc as second choice..
Although I know.. He talked to me because there were only the two of us around.. But that was enough to fill my memories..
I hope none of them will find this blog... though I know they aren't that lame to find it. (:
Wonder if I'll have the courage to take pictures with them on the last day of work.. Be it group photo or individual.. I hope to have an album of pictures @ my first workplace.
Hopefully.. None of them will ever find this blog. (:
I know they won't.. haha.. cuz they have better things to do. :D
Dreamland... isn't going to last long.. My last 2 & a half weeks.. ):
Thursday, 4 February 2010
Happy Seventeen~
Thank You everyone for birthday wishes! (:
I'm seventeen!! :D:D
Pictures will be uploaded soon.
Special thanks to Liting for giving me such a big soft-toy that can't fit into my locker. LOL!. It is very cute. (: *wo de xiao piglet hui get jealous de. LOL*
Also to Kristin, Letitia, Esther for helping me, hawa & cheryl to celebrate our seventeen birthday..
Though Huimin couldn't be there cuz of work.. I know she is wishing us from afar uh.. HAHA. Ur heart here can liaoz. :P so thank you too. HEHE. xD
Thanks to those who remembered.. (dun care whether u really remember or just happen to see that it was mine birthday on ur facebook homepage.. HAHA) THANK YOU~!
Played maple for 6 hours today.. Tomorrow I'll be back @ work.. LOL. (:
thank you.. (: wasn't expecting that you'll wish me happy birthday close to midnight. in chinese somemore..
When did you become a chinese person? haha.
I'm seventeen!! :D:D
Pictures will be uploaded soon.
Special thanks to Liting for giving me such a big soft-toy that can't fit into my locker. LOL!. It is very cute. (: *wo de xiao piglet hui get jealous de. LOL*
Also to Kristin, Letitia, Esther for helping me, hawa & cheryl to celebrate our seventeen birthday..
Though Huimin couldn't be there cuz of work.. I know she is wishing us from afar uh.. HAHA. Ur heart here can liaoz. :P so thank you too. HEHE. xD
Thanks to those who remembered.. (dun care whether u really remember or just happen to see that it was mine birthday on ur facebook homepage.. HAHA) THANK YOU~!
Played maple for 6 hours today.. Tomorrow I'll be back @ work.. LOL. (:
thank you.. (: wasn't expecting that you'll wish me happy birthday close to midnight. in chinese somemore..
When did you become a chinese person? haha.
Tuesday, 2 February 2010
- bored -
I'm sitting on my seat.. staring @ the computer.. & I dunno wad to do.
Life is getting meaningless..
Wonder why I feel so sad..
When will I emerge as a main lead in this drama called "Life on Earth"
I'm just this dull, ugly girl who keeps saying that "I am boring, dun bother associating urself with me...U'll get bored to death.. "
But actually.. How ugly can I be?
Sometimes I look @ myself in the mirror and I go.. " actually I'm quite pretty wad.." LOL!
Fine.. I'm thickskin.. But the words 'Pretty' and 'Beautiful' are judgemental. Just like tasting mango pudding.. Some love the taste of it.. Some just hate it.
I wonder why I'm even writing all these. I'm like in sub-conscious state now... =.="
*yawns*
Life is getting meaningless..
Wonder why I feel so sad..
When will I emerge as a main lead in this drama called "Life on Earth"
I'm just this dull, ugly girl who keeps saying that "I am boring, dun bother associating urself with me...U'll get bored to death.. "
But actually.. How ugly can I be?
Sometimes I look @ myself in the mirror and I go.. " actually I'm quite pretty wad.." LOL!
Fine.. I'm thickskin.. But the words 'Pretty' and 'Beautiful' are judgemental. Just like tasting mango pudding.. Some love the taste of it.. Some just hate it.
I wonder why I'm even writing all these. I'm like in sub-conscious state now... =.="
*yawns*
Monday, 1 February 2010
I got a shock when I saw weizhe today..
Then another shock when he opened his mouth to ask me work-related stuff.
When he called my name.. I shivered.. Goosebumps all came out. Wonder if he's that scary. =.="
Zihao is still the best la. Its more comfortable talking to him than talking to anyone else. Lol
We all quitting end of February sia.
Jeffrey asked me if I was resigning in March since sch is in April. Then I told him I'm quitting end February and he was like.. "oh.. same as zihao they all la.." then he gave that smile. LOL..
Wonder if I should tell Liting that we're all resigning end-feb.. LOL!.
25 more days of work.. then I'll be free.. (:
Hopefully I can get off day on my big day.
Blog again nxt time abt the V6 Fan Gathering yesterday. :D
Then another shock when he opened his mouth to ask me work-related stuff.
When he called my name.. I shivered.. Goosebumps all came out. Wonder if he's that scary. =.="
Zihao is still the best la. Its more comfortable talking to him than talking to anyone else. Lol
We all quitting end of February sia.
Jeffrey asked me if I was resigning in March since sch is in April. Then I told him I'm quitting end February and he was like.. "oh.. same as zihao they all la.." then he gave that smile. LOL..
Wonder if I should tell Liting that we're all resigning end-feb.. LOL!.
25 more days of work.. then I'll be free.. (:
Hopefully I can get off day on my big day.
Blog again nxt time abt the V6 Fan Gathering yesterday. :D
Tuesday, 26 January 2010
Saturday, 23 January 2010
- Disillusion -
- depressed -
Wad's getting into me?
Am I really that strong or am I just disillusioning myself?
Wad's getting into me?
Am I really that strong or am I just disillusioning myself?
Wednesday, 20 January 2010
No offence.. But I hope I won't have to work with MH for more than 3 days a week.. Will DIE..
Jeffrey asked me to put dividers on the biscuit lane..
Come on.. Its a freaking easy job.. I don't need help on that.. Haix..
& stop trying to think that I'm ur sister. cuz Im not.
I have my own family & friends to celebrate my birthday for me.. I dun need u to celebrate my birthday at UR house. It just doesn't make any sense..
Am I starting to be prejudiced against you? I'm hating you by the day..
Argh.. wad's wrong with me.. ._.
Jeffrey asked me to put dividers on the biscuit lane..
Come on.. Its a freaking easy job.. I don't need help on that.. Haix..
& stop trying to think that I'm ur sister. cuz Im not.
I have my own family & friends to celebrate my birthday for me.. I dun need u to celebrate my birthday at UR house. It just doesn't make any sense..
Am I starting to be prejudiced against you? I'm hating you by the day..
Argh.. wad's wrong with me.. ._.
Saturday, 16 January 2010
I wonder wad is wrong with me..
Its freaking difficult to open my darn mouth.
Jeffrey (CNSQ) told us to choose our own paths wisely.. Not to follow our friends for the sake of company.. but to follow wad we really want to do.. It is afterall.. Our future..
He also said that we should make something out of ourselves.. If you keep following your friends.. You'll just be known as so and so's friend.. (His words struck me hard.. )
I'm always just a shadow of others.. a supporting actress in others' life..
Its time for me to train to be a main lead.. But how?
Madeline is leaving on the 26th of Jan.. (she applied for JC)
Then I'm gonna lose e rest of my colleagues in 2 months time..
Liting, Alvin, Zihao & Weizhe..
I hoped to know all of them better.. But with my personality.. Haix
Went for lunch with Alvin & Weizhe the day before yesterday.. I barely spoke..
Only listened to them talk about their friends.. (while looking at them both intently :P)
I'm quite sad that they are aiming for TP.. which means.. I'm definitely not gonna be in the same school as them. Haix..
Hopefully.. I'll make use of this 2 precious months to know them better.. but with madeline off to studies.. It'll be hard.. She's our bridge.. ):
I wish. I hope. I pray.
Its freaking difficult to open my darn mouth.
Jeffrey (CNSQ) told us to choose our own paths wisely.. Not to follow our friends for the sake of company.. but to follow wad we really want to do.. It is afterall.. Our future..
He also said that we should make something out of ourselves.. If you keep following your friends.. You'll just be known as so and so's friend.. (His words struck me hard.. )
I'm always just a shadow of others.. a supporting actress in others' life..
Its time for me to train to be a main lead.. But how?
Madeline is leaving on the 26th of Jan.. (she applied for JC)
Then I'm gonna lose e rest of my colleagues in 2 months time..
Liting, Alvin, Zihao & Weizhe..
I hoped to know all of them better.. But with my personality.. Haix
Went for lunch with Alvin & Weizhe the day before yesterday.. I barely spoke..
Only listened to them talk about their friends.. (while looking at them both intently :P)
I'm quite sad that they are aiming for TP.. which means.. I'm definitely not gonna be in the same school as them. Haix..
Hopefully.. I'll make use of this 2 precious months to know them better.. but with madeline off to studies.. It'll be hard.. She's our bridge.. ):
I wish. I hope. I pray.
Thursday, 14 January 2010
-decision made-
I've finally submitted my JAE application:
I've finally submitted my JAE application:
1. International Business @ SP
2. Business Studies @ NP
3. Tampines JC (science)
4. Business Admin @ SP
5. Accountancy @ NP
6. Accountancy @ SP
7. Integrated events & project managment @ SP
8. Human Resource Management w Psychology @ SP
9. Financial Business Informatics @ TP
10. Law & Management @ TP
11. Accounting & Finance @ TP
12. Serangoon JC (science)
I'll pray hard that I'll get into SP International Business.. (:
I've just bet my whole life onto my first choice.. A big risk.. >.<"
Wish me Luck!
1. International Business @ SP
2. Business Studies @ NP
3. Tampines JC (science)
4. Business Admin @ SP
5. Accountancy @ NP
6. Accountancy @ SP
7. Integrated events & project managment @ SP
8. Human Resource Management w Psychology @ SP
9. Financial Business Informatics @ TP
10. Law & Management @ TP
11. Accounting & Finance @ TP
12. Serangoon JC (science)
I'll pray hard that I'll get into SP International Business.. (:
I've just bet my whole life onto my first choice.. A big risk.. >.<"
Wish me Luck!
I've finally submitted my JAE application:
1. International Business @ SP
2. Business Studies @ NP
3. Tampines JC (science)
4. Business Admin @ SP
5. Accountancy @ NP
6. Accountancy @ SP
7. Integrated events & project managment @ SP
8. Human Resource Management w Psychology @ SP
9. Financial Business Informatics @ TP
10. Law & Management @ TP
11. Accounting & Finance @ TP
12. Serangoon JC (science)
I'll pray hard that I'll get into SP International Business.. (:
I've just bet my whole life onto my first choice.. A big risk.. >.<"
Wish me Luck!
1. International Business @ SP
2. Business Studies @ NP
3. Tampines JC (science)
4. Business Admin @ SP
5. Accountancy @ NP
6. Accountancy @ SP
7. Integrated events & project managment @ SP
8. Human Resource Management w Psychology @ SP
9. Financial Business Informatics @ TP
10. Law & Management @ TP
11. Accounting & Finance @ TP
12. Serangoon JC (science)
I'll pray hard that I'll get into SP International Business.. (:
I've just bet my whole life onto my first choice.. A big risk.. >.<"
Wish me Luck!
Monday, 11 January 2010
Results Day!
Firstly.. BIG CONGRATS TO HUIMIN!! 6 Distinctions!! Ur hard work has paid off. :D
Results are finally out.. Happy or Sad.. It has finally been finalized and the next thing we should be worried about is the posting..
Will be travelling a lot this week I think.
Need to find out wad to put for my first choice.. Zzz
anyway.. Congrats to those to scored well..
Results are finally out.. Happy or Sad.. It has finally been finalized and the next thing we should be worried about is the posting..
Will be travelling a lot this week I think.
Need to find out wad to put for my first choice.. Zzz
anyway.. Congrats to those to scored well..
Thursday, 7 January 2010
2010 open House
Today is Day 1 open house for all polytechnics!
Met Madeline, Liting, Weizhe, Alvin & Zihao @ Eunos @ 11am. :D
It was super awkward.. Madeline & Weizhe was the bridge that linked the six of us together.
At Bugis.. Another guy came. Alvin's friend.. met once before. =.="
Anyway.. We went to Singapore Poly.. had a big tour.. looks good..
Then we went Temasek Poly.. SUPER HIGH.. (super scary)
After that.. We went Muihwa's House for dinner.
Her baobei is very dao.. haha. Madeline & Zihao played with him.. the rest of us just watched..
We left @ 9.. Walked to the bus-stop with the 3 guys. :)
I suppose they aren't as dao as I thought.
I practically melted when he smiled & waved bye.
oh well.. Tomorrow I'm on the morning shift.. Wonder who else is in the morning.
Liting, Madeline, MuiHwa & weizhe is in the afternoon, Alvin is off, so I think zihao is morning.
he said that I'll do forwarding alone for all the shelves tmr. Zzz. Crap larh.
Btw.. Facebook totally cant make it. haha
- My colleagues rock the world manz -
Met Madeline, Liting, Weizhe, Alvin & Zihao @ Eunos @ 11am. :D
It was super awkward.. Madeline & Weizhe was the bridge that linked the six of us together.
At Bugis.. Another guy came. Alvin's friend.. met once before. =.="
Anyway.. We went to Singapore Poly.. had a big tour.. looks good..
Then we went Temasek Poly.. SUPER HIGH.. (super scary)
After that.. We went Muihwa's House for dinner.
Her baobei is very dao.. haha. Madeline & Zihao played with him.. the rest of us just watched..
We left @ 9.. Walked to the bus-stop with the 3 guys. :)
I suppose they aren't as dao as I thought.
I practically melted when he smiled & waved bye.
oh well.. Tomorrow I'm on the morning shift.. Wonder who else is in the morning.
Liting, Madeline, MuiHwa & weizhe is in the afternoon, Alvin is off, so I think zihao is morning.
he said that I'll do forwarding alone for all the shelves tmr. Zzz. Crap larh.
Btw.. Facebook totally cant make it. haha
- My colleagues rock the world manz -