August is coming to an end!
September is just around the corner which means.. Exams are here within days. ):

Tag-board is removed.. too many unwanted people tagging advertisments for their own website.
- it gets on my nerves.

Gotta study.. (= Last 100m. haha.
Minna!! Ganbatte yo. (=

People whom actually bother reading this blog will probably think I'm crazy blogging so frequently when exams are as near as next Thursday..

Well.. I'll face it. I don't have a life so there is hardly a day where I'm not online.
My life revolves around the computers.. Sad case..

I'm actually feeling kinda sad right now.. But.. I don't know the reason why.
Okay.. I'm weird. (=

v6's 'Only Dreaming' Music Video IS OUT! Ken[Miyake] looks really fabulous there. Its awesome how great he looks at every angle. I can't help.. but day-dream about him every now and then. :D
There was once where I really dreamt about him.. It was the best dream I ever had. haha~

Time to study about the SG economy.. Sianz

I created a small study corner.. (=
A small portable table for my laptop and the other study table to write my notes.
Yeah~ I know.. Laptops are a distraction! but.. no choice.. I didn't print the lecture notes out the previous time and printing it now is kinda wasteful.. This is when self-discipline will come in rightt? :P

I opened all the related files and by staring at it.. I don't know where to start.. )=
HOW TO STUDY?!?!?!?! ahhhhH~

Time is running out~~~ AND I've been sleeping close to 12 hours a day!! Good Gosh~ D:

Tomorrow there's lunch gathering with the others at DTE.. still considering whether to go~ I guess I will.. O.o
Shall bring some notes to study.. ^^

*sighs*
My first time cooking rice in the cooker.. Hopefully it'll turn out alright~ (=
I was so pissed at my sisters!!! One who refuses to wake up and the other who refuses to cook rice!
Usually she cooks the rice.. But I was so pissed at her laziness.. I googled for instructions and I went to cook myself. =.=" lol~ when anger fuels my determination~ sighs.. I really should learn how to control that short temper of mine towards my family. =.="

Flag Day for The Lion's Home for the Elderly~~~
My second Leo Event and my First Flag Day!!! It was not only an event that allowed me to do a little something but also an event which exposed me to the different types of people in Singapore.

There are people who would ask for the donation's purpose,
there are people who would donate willingly without any questions,
there are those whom would only donate if you ask,
those whom give a hand signal to tell us that they don't want to donate,
and lastly, the ones I hate most, are those whom I approached and they ignored me completely, as though I was non-existent.

A donation drive is conducted to help people who are in need of assistance.
Its extremely okay that you don't donate. At the very least give us a response.. Isn't that the most BASIC courtesy or perhaps BASIC RESPECT you can show to a fellow human being?
I don't think I did anything to be treated this way - A non-existent being.

Overall, flag day was fun.. ^^ made a few new friends. OH and and!! I met a fellow Hai Sian who stays in the same area as ME!! hehe. (=
We chatted the whole 4 hours away~ awesome day~

After the whole Chinatown Flag Day thingy.. [got certificate wor~! ^^], I went home, then after resting a little while, I went out again, this time with my JTC-Taiko teammates. (=

The annual Japanese Summer Festival held at the Japanese Primary School [Changi - which is damn near my house] , I was kinda over the moon that my CCA mates had to travel like near 2 hours while I took less than an hour. Wahahaha. Its only one day of the year that I can feel that way OKAY! )=

The festival.. was awesome.. but... A lot of people~~ D:
The food was very expensive too~

Oh!Oh! we were offered to a 6 parts game: Matching, PingPong, Throwing hoops, Trivia Quiz, Falling cans and Chaptek!

1. Matching Game: Basically a competition with the 2, I vs Ben - I lost.. =.=", I vs Wei Hau, I almost lost.. but he was helping it to become a draw so we can both get the stamp.. haha!

2. PingPong Game: Is to throw the balls into a egg holder and form rows of at least 3.

3. Chaptek: Kick the chaptek 3 times within 20 sec.. [can drop on the floor then pick up and kick.. as long as its within 20 sec.. LOL!]

4. Falling Cans: Throw a Tennis Ball at the 6 pyramid-stacked cans. if 5 drop.. you win. [I threw.. but only 4 went down.. but she gave it to me anyway. :P]

5. Throwing Hoops: I owned at this game. :D its like the matching game, compete with another person~~ ^^

6. Trivia Quiz Game: We discussed answers, hehe.

SO!! the lucky draw.. I won a cup. Apparently, I was quite lucky. ^^

Yeah~ this is a long long post~~ >< so I shall stop typing. Legs breaking, Hands aching, Feel like sleeping. HAHA. SO till next time.~~

This is bad... this is bad... this is BAD!!!
I didn't study a single thing today!!! okay.. maybe just the formats for POA. ~.~

Sometimes.. Speaking the truth will do you no good..
To be a little reserved about certain things may actually work much better.. (=
I'm still a small girl..
There are so many things in this world that I haven't learnt.. haven't seen.. haven't experienced..

With my little lifespan, I hope to be able to make a difference.. ^^ Big Talk, Small Actions. D:
Opps, should be the other way round. haha~ maybe a few more years down the road bah.. (=

Maybe then... ...

I used to be very proud being in JTC - Taiko.
It seems my interest really died off eh? It is now nothing but an obligation.

The feeling is now insufferable.
... Unless I can truly tell everyone what I feel.. I can never lead a happy poly life.

Icen and Ziyan are truly awesome friends. Really.. But I always felt lonely with them. Afterall.. they always decide certain things and do things together.
I don't really anticipate being in the same class as them again. I had hoped someone could understand me. I haven worked with Jaws but somehow.. I feel I can trust her enough. But I can't bring myself to tell her things.

How am I supposed to tell her I had purposely forgone the zoo excursion? How am I supposed to say that I don't want to be in the same class as the other two? How am I supposed to tell her everything? I'm scared.

Same goes for my cca.. how am I supposed to tell Shining that I lost interest in the CCA and I no longer want to attend the trainings? I miss badminton. I was never meant for some cultural CCA. I never appreciated the culture and arts anyway. My first semester is totally screwed up. how?!?!

I wonder whats going on with me this few days.. Perhaps I'm confused, perhaps I'm dismayed..
Afterall.. The friends I made.. don't last.
The relationship I once had.. confirmed my belief that ever-lasting love don't exist in this world.

I'm starting to embrace the feeling of being alone.
In fact.. I'm starting to like being alone. ^-^
To drag myself out of the house for an outing.. its an uphill task. sometimes.. I'll walk out of the house to the lift and ask myself..what the heck am I doing? then I'll walk back to the house. haha. (=

Oh well~ ^^

Happy 45th Birthday Singapore~! (=
I'm really proud to be a Singaporean~
If there is a chance.. I hope to do something for you someday...

Diverting, I'm really upset by the national day programme: Asia Song Festival.
They didn't show the full thing. I'm very upset, angry and pissed off.
How can they not show V6?!?!?!?!?!?! Feel like sending in a complain letter. Cheat my feelings. >:(

Friends around me better not add oil to fire.
I DO NOT GUARANTEE YOUR SAFETY if you make brainless statements. >:(

Anyway~ (= Happy Birthday my Awesome Singapore. ^-^

Have I lost my sense of moods?
Its hard for even me to decipher the mood I'm having.

Whenever I see him, I used to feel really sad that I could cry, but now, even when I see him with his gf, I don't feel anything. Its just a very numb feeling, but I know I'm okay.
When I see Icen and Ziyan together, the usual me would feel sad that I'm a little left out, but I don't feel it anymore. I just walk a little faster and it becomes okay.

Am I often so sad that I have become immune or have I matured?
I hope to think that I've matured. Haha. (=

ps: I wonder why funny people are tagging on my tagboard advertising some stuff.. =.="

It was raining cats and dogs in the morning today!
The New Moon Big Walk was delayed for awhile.. but at least we got to walk.. (=
Initially.. really tough to find someone to communicate.. either they have their own clique, or they don't look really friendly.. haha. :x

Managed to meet a senior whom started talking to me. ^-^ her name is Jasmine I think..
She's really cute.. and friendly. Made the journey survivable. It was really cute how she and another guy was trying to persuade me to go for the Fusion Camp.. I would have gone.. But unfortunately.. I saw JTC camp first and had signed up alrdy. ):

Min talked to me today~ (=
Along the way I cried.. but I din tell her that of course. [but if she sees this she'll know.. lolx.]
It's not PMS. that I guarantee. LOL~

Tmr is my DSS test~ I don't intend to study~ so good luck to me tomorrow.
I'll focus on POA today~ while listening to BY2's songs.

Last week of school starting tmr.. As much as I'm relieved.. there's a little.. 舍不得 de feeling..
Okay. I know I'm typing broken English. But I can't remember what 舍不得 is in English...

Cham manz.. I think my memory is getting from bad to worst.. ):
and I'll be super malu. because I think I just sent an email to the wrong person. O.o because I couldn't remember who organised the event. BA_Comm or BAOC.. ><