I feel so lonely. lol. whats new.
There are a zillion thoughts that ran through my mind all of a sudden and I'm so.. confused.
In poly, I really.. can't differentiate who I can trust and who I can't.. People seem so superficial and I no longer know what to do. The helpless feeling.. but I'm not helpless.. I can't say I am.. there are so many people whom are more helpless than me and I know it.
I don't know exactly what I want to do. Its as though I'm walking through an endless tunnel.
Bottling things up isn't good, but who can I ramble to? People care, I know they do, but they have their own problems and I don't want to add on.
If only someone can tell me what to do.
Sunday, 31 October 2010
Thursday, 28 October 2010
The first week of semester two is coming to an end. (:
Next week onwards it will be full scale time-table.
*sighs* I'm already so shag after the first week.. how am I gonna survive the weeks that follow?
The modules seem really difficult to score.. Having a really bad feeling about it.
1. OBSE lecturer CMI. [worst still, he's my tutor]
2. MIEC lecturer talk like a bullet-train [I didn't absorb anything today]
3. BCOMM is gonna be difficult to score [AH!! week 3 presentation 10%!!!]
4. ITB has WRITTEN exam! and I thot it was all about IT. =3=
5. BSTATS lecturer SONNY PHUA.. cant stand him.. =.=
Waa. Can die. Japanese 102 isn't going to be easy to score.. Really need to allocate a time to study Jap too..
*sighs* 頑張ります!
Next week onwards it will be full scale time-table.
*sighs* I'm already so shag after the first week.. how am I gonna survive the weeks that follow?
The modules seem really difficult to score.. Having a really bad feeling about it.
1. OBSE lecturer CMI. [worst still, he's my tutor]
2. MIEC lecturer talk like a bullet-train [I didn't absorb anything today]
3. BCOMM is gonna be difficult to score [AH!! week 3 presentation 10%!!!]
4. ITB has WRITTEN exam! and I thot it was all about IT. =3=
5. BSTATS lecturer SONNY PHUA.. cant stand him.. =.=
Waa. Can die. Japanese 102 isn't going to be easy to score.. Really need to allocate a time to study Jap too..
*sighs* 頑張ります!
Wednesday, 20 October 2010
Tuesday, 19 October 2010
Friday, 15 October 2010
Today is an absolutely nutko day for me.
First, I took so long just to find a pair of black pants to fit my work attire, so I set off for work late.
While on the train, I almost missed my stop at City Hall cuz I was day-dreaming..
At City Hall, I wanted to climb the stairs up to exit of the mrt.. took 2 steps.. & I wondered why the stairs looked so different from the one I always climbed.. realised that I haven reach Orchard yet. ==
Being a C Shift worker.. I had to work with the supervisor named Craig today.. He looked stern, no smile, just serious.. He told me to take some stocks down.. But I went to pantry to search for the stocks.. to no avail.. I didn't check with Esther [The food department head].. I went down.. told him dun have.
I was probably the only idiot that didn't bring any stocks down at all after being up there for so long. ):
After that.. I felt so depressed.. Had my break alone feeling down..
I went back to work 10 min earlier.. cuz.. I was so depressed. LOL!
but.. Nicholas was worst.. He was totally depressed..
I dunno what happened.. but Jasmine told me that he has been like that since yesterday..
I could sense his sadden mood.. So after much consideration.. I went to ask him if he was alright.. he nodded at me.. but didn't say anything..
I folded a crane because I was bored..
To my surprise.. That guy that always dao-ed me asked me to teach him how to fold crane. *sighs* SEE! people talk to me only when they need me to do/help/teach something. *sighs*LOL!
After that.. Towards the night.. seeing Nicholas so depressed.. I wrote a message & folded it into a crane. LOL!
& I forgot what I wrote.. & I actually PASSED IT TO HIM! OMG! ==
He totally gave me the "huh" look. I'm so gonna be a joke tmr. Hope he doesn't avoid me or think that I like him cuz I think he's attached & I DON'T GO FOR ATTACHED GUYS OKIE! I NOT BITCH~! LOL! =3=
Anyway.. I was on HIGH from after 630.. & I realise.. Craig can be quite a funny guy & nice to talk to.. HAH.
So.. He isn't as STRICT, as DULL, as STERN as everyone thinks he is.. hahahah~
oh well.. Its pass 12 alrdy.. a New day.. (= which means.. 3 more working days for me before I say BYE BYE to Marks & Spencer.. ^^ k. This is A LONG post.. D: hehe.
Made this post specially for huimin to read since she wanted to know what happened after I text her a super emo message. so this are the BEFORE & AFTER sending that emo message.. HAHA!
I wonder if he will read it.. or just throw it away.. hmm~ oh well.. who cares. xD
First, I took so long just to find a pair of black pants to fit my work attire, so I set off for work late.
While on the train, I almost missed my stop at City Hall cuz I was day-dreaming..
At City Hall, I wanted to climb the stairs up to exit of the mrt.. took 2 steps.. & I wondered why the stairs looked so different from the one I always climbed.. realised that I haven reach Orchard yet. ==
Being a C Shift worker.. I had to work with the supervisor named Craig today.. He looked stern, no smile, just serious.. He told me to take some stocks down.. But I went to pantry to search for the stocks.. to no avail.. I didn't check with Esther [The food department head].. I went down.. told him dun have.
I was probably the only idiot that didn't bring any stocks down at all after being up there for so long. ):
After that.. I felt so depressed.. Had my break alone feeling down..
I went back to work 10 min earlier.. cuz.. I was so depressed. LOL!
but.. Nicholas was worst.. He was totally depressed..
I dunno what happened.. but Jasmine told me that he has been like that since yesterday..
I could sense his sadden mood.. So after much consideration.. I went to ask him if he was alright.. he nodded at me.. but didn't say anything..
I folded a crane because I was bored..
To my surprise.. That guy that always dao-ed me asked me to teach him how to fold crane. *sighs* SEE! people talk to me only when they need me to do/help/teach something. *sighs*LOL!
After that.. Towards the night.. seeing Nicholas so depressed.. I wrote a message & folded it into a crane. LOL!
& I forgot what I wrote.. & I actually PASSED IT TO HIM! OMG! ==
He totally gave me the "huh" look. I'm so gonna be a joke tmr. Hope he doesn't avoid me or think that I like him cuz I think he's attached & I DON'T GO FOR ATTACHED GUYS OKIE! I NOT BITCH~! LOL! =3=
Anyway.. I was on HIGH from after 630.. & I realise.. Craig can be quite a funny guy & nice to talk to.. HAH.
So.. He isn't as STRICT, as DULL, as STERN as everyone thinks he is.. hahahah~
oh well.. Its pass 12 alrdy.. a New day.. (= which means.. 3 more working days for me before I say BYE BYE to Marks & Spencer.. ^^ k. This is A LONG post.. D: hehe.
Made this post specially for huimin to read since she wanted to know what happened after I text her a super emo message. so this are the BEFORE & AFTER sending that emo message.. HAHA!
I wonder if he will read it.. or just throw it away.. hmm~ oh well.. who cares. xD
Thursday, 14 October 2010
4 more days to go~
Seriously speaking.. Though I'll really glad that my contract is ending on the 18th.. I may actually miss some people there.. Wati.. Jun.. Nordin.. maybe Melody.. hahah! and of cuz the nice temp staff working along with me.. Angela & Nicholas. Hopefully I'll see them around in School! Yes yes.. the three of us are from NP! hahah!
On the other hand.. The other 2 temp ones.. Jasmine & Benjamin.. One SP one NYP.
Jasmine is nice & pretty.. but I can feel we aren't on the same frequency.. Benjamin is just pure unfriendly [to me~ ):] Oh well.. not that I care.
Tmr I'll be on the same shift as Nicholas. Awesome. ^^
Timetable is out.. ): so far.. I alrdy noe about 6 people whom is in my class. *sighs* worrying.
I was surprised when Desmond & Saikiat expressed their concern over my msn pm. lol! I guess I've been posting too many emo pm.. oh well.. but I really appreciated it.. (=
I shall look forward to next week then! <3 All the outings with awesome people. ^^
Seriously speaking.. Though I'll really glad that my contract is ending on the 18th.. I may actually miss some people there.. Wati.. Jun.. Nordin.. maybe Melody.. hahah! and of cuz the nice temp staff working along with me.. Angela & Nicholas. Hopefully I'll see them around in School! Yes yes.. the three of us are from NP! hahah!
On the other hand.. The other 2 temp ones.. Jasmine & Benjamin.. One SP one NYP.
Jasmine is nice & pretty.. but I can feel we aren't on the same frequency.. Benjamin is just pure unfriendly [to me~ ):] Oh well.. not that I care.
Tmr I'll be on the same shift as Nicholas. Awesome. ^^
Timetable is out.. ): so far.. I alrdy noe about 6 people whom is in my class. *sighs* worrying.
I was surprised when Desmond & Saikiat expressed their concern over my msn pm. lol! I guess I've been posting too many emo pm.. oh well.. but I really appreciated it.. (=
I shall look forward to next week then! <3 All the outings with awesome people. ^^
Saturday, 9 October 2010
Tuesday, 5 October 2010
12 more working days to go.. fighting!
Though I'm half dead alrdy. 2 more working days to an off day! WHEE.
but after Thursday.. its the peak weekend. ): then.. its a 6 days wait to the next off.
but after the next off.. its a 4 days work day till the end of assignment! okie..
Endure Jin! ENDURE. for ching$ ching$.
Gotta save up if I wanna pull the plan for Hokkaido earlier! ):
and there's a Taiwan or Hong Kong plan next year to celebrate my dad's lunar 60th birthday! ):
Gotta save up save up!
Though I'm half dead alrdy. 2 more working days to an off day! WHEE.
but after Thursday.. its the peak weekend. ): then.. its a 6 days wait to the next off.
but after the next off.. its a 4 days work day till the end of assignment! okie..
Endure Jin! ENDURE. for ching$ ching$.
Gotta save up if I wanna pull the plan for Hokkaido earlier! ):
and there's a Taiwan or Hong Kong plan next year to celebrate my dad's lunar 60th birthday! ):
Gotta save up save up!
Friday, 1 October 2010
Today is Children's day.. Today is RESULTS day~
Got my first result slip.. I cried. Not in joy, but in depression.
Perhaps.. my personal expectations are too high. but I dun intend to change the target goals..
I know I did my best.. (=
I should stop comparing. because I am ME. and nobody can replace being me.
I love LEO club for giving me wisdom, and I love JTC for giving me wonderful friends like Ning and PN~ ^^
From now on, I know I will not fall to the ground because.. u all are right there supporting me. (=
Got my first result slip.. I cried. Not in joy, but in depression.
Perhaps.. my personal expectations are too high. but I dun intend to change the target goals..
I know I did my best.. (=
I should stop comparing. because I am ME. and nobody can replace being me.
I love LEO club for giving me wisdom, and I love JTC for giving me wonderful friends like Ning and PN~ ^^
From now on, I know I will not fall to the ground because.. u all are right there supporting me. (=