最後の日 2013

今日は今年の最後の日！

2013.. the year of ups and downs.. but nonetheless, a wonderful year. A quick summary of the highlights of the year:

January - February: Final Semester in Ngee Ann Poly

March: Sister Trip to Osaka! V6 OH!MY!GOODNESS! LIVE TOUR 2013 (29.03 & 31.03), Missed flight back for the first time. 

April - Mid June: First Time Working in an Office Environment (2 months)

May: Graduated from NP! 

June: Family Trip to Hokkaido & Tokyo! 

Mid July - December: Worked with SSC (5.5 months)

Despite facing much rejections, dejection and perhaps even depression... I'm thankful things worked out towards the end of the year... & I know 2014 is going to be an even greater year, filled with many first times.

So, that's it. My year 2013 in a glimpse.
Enjoy & the last moments of 2013 & welcome the new year in a bit.

HAPPY NEW YEAR. & HELLO 2014!!! :e

Merry Christmas!

Around this time last year, in Taiwan. 

Wishing all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Into the final month of 2013

& its December! A festive season of fun and gatherings is here again! :star

Started off the month with a day out, window shopping, in the city and bumped into dear Jole at Changi Airport, during dinner time! Its been a week or so since she had been back and we had arranged to meet along with the rest of 'PleasurePursuits' (NP final semester project mates) at the end of the year.. so, it was a great surprise! :e 

Every iconic place in this little red dot is being fitted with Christmas decorations and it's such a pleasure to see. 

Aye aye Captain! @ City Link

Pirate Parrot & its Treasure @ City Link

Snowy Xmas Penguin @ Marina Square

Sleigh @ Marina Square

Can't wait to see all my friends when they finally finish their University examinations and have fun this Christmas... xD

a 'tribute' to an uncle

I have this uncle.. whom I rarely met in my lifetime.. a few glimpses here and there while visiting grams (a.k.a grandmother) at her house when she was still around... and a more impressionable few times at grams' passing. For some reason, he never liked mingling with his siblings... not to even mention his eventual nieces and nephews.. 

Once in a blue moon, we would hear mentions from mum about his womanising ways.. Honestly, not a great way to remember an uncle by. Unfortunately, it has become the only memory worth remembering. 

Just a few days ago, he lost the battle with cancer and left the world to join grams. I attended his wake on the last day, and that was pretty much it. No flashbacks, no feelings, nothing. Even his own siblings had their reservations. 

Well, I saw a glimpse of how it would be like on my deathbed/funeral if I were to stubbornly deny my future niece/nephew into my life, and one thing for certain, I don't like it. x.X

Sporting Friday!

'Sporting Fridays are fun.'

An organisation's culture, tradition and way of life. That's what I experienced in the recent months of working. 

Had a great workout session with colleagues last Friday... felt like I was back in school attending my regular practice session. (: ah. Those were the days... *memories*

Hello November~

The past weeks have been relatively.. uneventful? 

Have been wanting to head out these few weekends.. suggesting outings to Pulau Ubin/Cycling/Museum-Visits/Shopping... etc.. Unfortunately.. the weather has been erratic these days... A moment of sun and the next it becomes a thunderstorm/downpour... Things never goes as planned eh? haha. 

It's finally November... hoping for it to be spent a little more meaningfully.. (:

悔しい~~

最近、私はすごく悔しい。

二番目の姉が妊娠しました。私は子供が好きじゃないから、ちょっと悔しい。今から、すべてが変更されましたと思う。嫌い。(T^T)

来年子供が生まれるとき、私はシンガポールでいないでしょう。よかった。

夏祭り 2013

今年の夏祭りへ行った！とても楽しい経験だよ。

夏祭り 2010 was my first time experiencing the festival. I remember how amazed I was at the number of people who knew about it and supported it. There were many people in their own Yukatas and I was in a state of admiration and envy. 

Since コジさんは十月日本へ帰る, I thought it'll be nice to let them know how loved the Japanese culture is in Singapore. 

夏祭り２０１３

With special thanks to Shining (my ex-taiko mate) whom have gotten the tickets for us. It was regretful that we didn't managed to take a picture together... it would have been really nice since we were both in Yukata. haha. 

And yes, mEi's very belated birthday gift to me was my very own Yukata. 笑子さん had picked the colour and designs for us... She chose a pink Yukata for me because, in her opinion, I was in the prime of my life and I should wear something that represents my age. 

me in Yukata!

どう？does a sweet image suit me? hahaha. This was one of the nicer pictures that was profile-worthy. I didn't have time to put on any make-up. Guess it wasn't too bad? :P

とても楽しかったね。日本で浴衣を着たい。それはおもしろい経験と思う。:3

Happy 48th Birthday Singapore!

シンガポール、お誕生日おめでとうございます！

My home, where my friends and family belong. I Love You. =D Stay an awesome little nation & grow stronger. 

HAPPY 48th BIRTHDAY! 

a lesson on Motivation

"There was a beautiful garden near a professor's house. Every single day, many children would come by to play in the beautiful garden. The professor, being a professor, can't chase the children away (nor scream and shout at them) regardless of how much noise they are making, so she decided to conduct an experiment. 

For the first few days, she gave every child that came by $1 each. As the days pass, she reduced the amount to $0.80, then to $0.60, then to $0.40 and when the amount eventually dropped to $0.00, the children stopped coming. 

Why?

Because the children had forgotten the actual reason that they came to the gardens. - to PLAY." 

This holds true to people from all walks of life. In our pursuit in our dreams, we get distracted along the way, and sometimes forget what we had worked hard for, why we are doing what we are doing, etc... 

Lesson of the Day? - don't let yourselves be distracted. remind yourselves from time to time the reasons and motivations you had when you made your choices/decisions.. and work for it. 

All the best! 加油! 화이팅! 頑張って! \(=^-^=)/

*Thank you Ms Ruth Ng (Fencing) from sharing the above story with us. I shall never forget this lesson. (: *

A Tribute to TaliaJoy18

Just weeks ago.. I got to know this awesome little girl through bubzbeauty tweets. She was so pretty, so mature and so inspiring. Her name was Talia Castellano and she was 13. 

She had been battling with cancer for 6 years... and on 16 July 2013... She had earned her angel wings. Despite that, she left her accomplishments and experiences here to help others. In her short span of living here on Earth... she had accomplished so much... She is truly an amazing girl. 

Talia Castellano. Picture with credits to Angels for Talia Facebook Page

For the past weeks... I thought of her every single day.. We weren't related in any way... not even geographically close.. but her never-giving-up spirit, her passion for make-up, the way she looked at life... was so great that I could feel it right here. 

Goodbye Talia. You were one amazing girl.. If heaven is a place that I could still get to know people whom I've never met on Earth.. I would love to get to know you. (:

A Tribute to Cory Monteith (AKA. Finn Hudson)

To the actor whom have brought smiles to fans/viewers of GLEE.. Thank you. 

Cory Monteith & Lea Michelle (picture with credits to source below)
(http://www.wetpaint.com/glee/articles/lea-michele-and-boyfriend-cory-monteith-how-long-have-they-been-dating)

sucked into the world of self pity

"When life gives you lemons... make lemonade out of it..." says one inner voice..  

"You are pathetic.. why do you live?" says the other.  

Who am I, really, to say that I have a sad life... when I have a place to call home, food to satisfy my stomach... with basic necessities all covered? On top of all that, I have a complete family... and my friends...

For the past week.. I have been drowning myself in self-pity. "Am I not good-enough?", "Why am I rejected?","I don't think I deserve to be treated this way.", "Why doesn't my family understand me?", "Why can't they just believe in me?" A bunch of "whys..." and "me.".. Self-Pity. 

Perhaps my sister was right.. I disappointed my mum... and most of all, I disappointed myself. I had so much believe in myself... but I couldn't fulfil whatever goal I had in mind. I had too much ego in me to take this humiliation. (I had always been an egoistic bastard anyway.)

& now the question... How do I move on from here? ... ... ... 分からない。

"how's life?" "uh.. liddat lor"

Every gathering/catch-up session with friends... this question is bound to emerge: "so... how's life?" 
I seem to have reached the age where all your guy friends would be talking about 'Army', 'Enlistment', 'POP', 'ORD'.. etc.. etc... and all your girl friends... 'University', 'Work', 'Colleagues'... you get the drift... 

My answer to that question would always be... 'huh.. like that lor.' in a typical SGrean slang.. AKA Singlish. 

Being neither here nor there... honestly, there isn't much I can talk about these days... I'm neither in the army... nor am I accepted into the Universities.. 'Sandwich' would be the best word to describe my life, for now. Frustration... Anxiety... Envy... Just losing hope in general.

My heart feels so burdened these days.. I don't want to think nor talk about it.. not at all.. but my personality disallows that. Till the day I receive something from SMU or Uni of Melb... Till the day I find another temp job. Till the day I solve my own financial crisis.. till... forever. My mind never seem to stop thinking. If only there was a switch off button in the system. 

I am in need of closure. There are too many things going on.. I just can't seem to relax and just go with the flow. If only... somebody could give me an answer to all these questions... If only... 

It's Official... I'm a NP Graduate!

23.May.2013... marks the day I graduate from Ngee Ann Polytechnic... Been waiting for this day since 3 years ago... but now that its here... I can't help but have mixed feelings... 

Well... It pretty much signifies that my soul is free once again.. not belonging to any institute, not having any identity. 
It also signifies the beginning of yet another chapter.. wherever I would be. 
Needless to say, it also signifies the moment where friends embark on their own paths... where "we" become a memory. 

All the best to fellow graduates! I'm sure all of us would have a great future in front of us...! (:

rants from a broke little girl

"去抢银行的钱算了"...

お金が大切知っても。。。I know I can't be dependent on older siblings/ parents all the time for sponsorships  for family trips, food and what not just because I'm the maknae in the family. That's a given... 

But being all calculative with me when first of all, I'm already repaying using whatever salary I earned for the month (every single cent of my salary, I don't even keep some for myself to spend)... don't you think its a little overboard...?

... just ranting. 

BLUE MOON WORLD TOUR (CNBlue Live in SG)

Just last Friday (13 April), CNBLUE was rocking the SG Indoor Stadium with their vocals and instruments... from ballads to rock music. I.WAS.THERE.


Surprisingly, I came to realise that it was my first SG-based concert that I have ever attended. Pretty sure that it won't be my last since B.A.P Live on Earth concert is coming to SG on the 12th of June 2013. Back to topic, I gave my all as a fan-girl, screaming my lungs out, singing to songs I was more familiar with, though sitting throughout the entire concert was a little anti-climax to me. WHY would anyone sit through a k-pop rock concert? WHY? o.o Makes me wonder if its just a Singapore thing. However, I must say, the fanclub coordinated events was really impressive. (:


During 'Lovelight', fans used their phone's flashlight and created a twinkling star effect amongst the sea of blue lights. (disclaimer: the following picture belongs to rightful owner stated on pic. )

Credits on Picture. - CNBLUESGFC 

Isn't it just so pretty? I happened to read about it before the concert, so I downloaded the flashlight app... (was glad I did and had an opportunity to participate in it. (: thank you CNBLUESGFC)

The initiative that I really liked and was impressed about the most was the paper project. If you had been reading fan-accounts or some press reviews of the concert, there were many volunteers going around the stadium, hours prior to the concert, distributing an A4 paper that wrote '보고 싶어요' which means 'I've missed you' in Korean to all concert-goers.

It was supposed to be used during one of the songs.. Unfortunately, it didn't happen as the setlist was slightly changed. So, I thought perhaps it wasn't going to happen. BUT THANKFULLY, the paper had its purpose fulfilled.

During the very last song of the concert, 'Try again, Smile again'... YongHwa spotted one of the fans holding the paper, and mentioned '보고 싶어요(BoGoShiPoYo)' to Boices. Everyone seems to know that that was the perfect time to use the paper. I think YongHwa was caught by surprise and touched when he saw the entire stadium holding it up. He repeatedly said that he was going to come back here to Singapore and that he loved Singapore. (Watch it here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XtixdiRmt5Y)

Not mine. Credits to rightful owner...

Not mine. Credits to rightful owner... T-T 

That was truly... my favourite part about the fan-support initiatives... It was a great night. (:

I'm loving CNBLUE even more after the concert, I strongly believe they are a really nice, family-bonded band. (: CNBLUE HWAITING!

- to my friends reading this... no, my no.1 group is still v6 (J-pop) and will always be. If you're wondering why I haven actually blogged about V6 Oh! My! Goodness! Live Tour 2013 which happened earlier than CNBLUE's BLUE MOON WORLD TOUR, that's because I have already done so in my v6 only blog - http://starz04.livejournal.com/ - (: Love you! & Meet up soon!

It's OFFICIAL.

"Passed & Completed the Diploma Course"... 

It's finally official, I have completed my polytechnic studies, ending the semester with a *BOOM*. Why *BOOM* you ask? - When I had gotten my first semestral results, I had listed TWO goals that I had thought was not achievable but still dreamed of achieving it. 

1. To attain a 4.0 GPA for at least one semester 
2. To attain at least an AD for one core module. 

Well, I barely achieved the first goal, since I had gotten the 4.0 for the semester that I was on internship. It's probably normal for anyone to get a 4.0 for their internship, so I guess you could argue that it doesn't count as an achievement. Nevertheless, it still states as a 4.0 on the result slip, so I'm counting it anyway. hahah. 

As for the second goal, I'm sure you guessed it already... (from where this post was heading towards). YES, you're right, I attained my AD that I had been hoping day after day for. For not just ONE... but FOUR modules this semester. *HURRAY* *POMPOMs* *CHEERS* 

I was so nervous the day before the release of the examination results. Worrying about the unnecessary 'what-ifs'.. worrying that I may not do as well as I hoped. But when I got the SMS at about 8.15 am on Friday... I was stunned with the 4 ADs staring in my face. I jumped out of bed, ran to my laptop, switched it on (to check npal), and started screaming like a maniac (yes, my family hadn't left for work yet, so they all heard me screaming)

Never in my life, I had received my results with such joy. Not for PSLE, not for 'O' levels, neither for the past five semesters in Ngee Ann. 

I attained the ADs for 3 core modules (SM, BMM & MRSH) & 1 IS module (int.design)... Honestly, I couldn't have done this without my wonderful project mates... Wee for always gathering us together for project discussions and challenging ideas, Janice for always motivating, entertaining and encouraging, Jole for being my bestie, always listening to my rants and ideas, & JiaQi for always being stressed and ever hilarious. 

Not forgetting the wonderful marketing lecturers aka. tutors that have made their lectures and tutorials so interesting. It really motivated me into studying hard for the tests and examinations. 

For the first time, I felt like all the hardwork that we had put in for the semester has been paid off. (though, there were some disappointment, especially so for MCOMM since it was the module that we had all put it a lot of work, and brain cells in it, but none of us really scored that well.)

I guess this is what some would call, "a happy ending". The last semester in Ngee Ann was the best and most memorable. In fact, the entire 2012 was filled with memories..  making new international friends (my Nepalese colleagues, Chinese colleagues...) when I was in Sanya, Hainan, China. Meeting PleasurePursuits (my project mates). & Ending the academic year with good grades. 

From this day on, we may all be heading for different directions in life, but at least, we know that a part of our lives were once spent together, as colleagues, project mates, classmates, etc. I wish for the best for everyone and hopefully, someday, our paths will meet again. (: 

Unofficial Graduation!

It's been awhile since I last posted... Its finally MARCH!. =D
Examinations had been over since February 20th... Since then, I've had several outings/catch-ups with fellow friends... which felt really good. (: Been bumming around, mostly at home, which helped in complete relaxation from the tough semester... There were days where I would sleep at 2-3am in the morning and wake up the next day at noon... haha.

These recent days, however, I had to shift my body clock due to a temp event job that I took up which requires me to be at the event venue at 7am sharp. Though its only a span of two days... I didn't want to risk oversleeping. (:

Just a few days ago, a Japanese friend, whom I got into acquaintance with during the interaction session with Komagome High School, added me on twitter. I was so touched that she had the picture (taken with us) used as her profile picture. Within minutes after accepting her friend request, she sent me a direct message, initiating a conversation in English. Though the conversation eventually became fully in Japanese (I replied in Japanese, that's why). haha. I guess its a good thing.. she is very friendly. (: 

And so, I am now considered an unofficial Ngee Ann graduate... am currently awaiting for the final results which will be released in 9 days. D: *Dreading...* Anyway, have a good holiday everyone! =D 

Happy Lunar New Year 2013

Happy Lunar SNAKE Year! (: 

AH... yet another year/lunar year has passed by... This year, however, would mark the beginning of a brand new chapter.. A year of uncertainties, separation of pathways from friends, new introductions & etc. 

& so.. whats going on currently? -> all projects are now OVER.. leaving the examinations to be the only ones left to be cleared. Am also busy with the local universities admissions... 

Honestly.. slacking quite bit these days.. about time to buck up and start studying for the exams before it becomes too late. ): 

Anyway, all the best to everyone in this new lunar year! Remember to stay safe, healthy & happy. :) 

2013 Hwaiting! 

designs.. & more designs

Its the fifth day of the new year... & as the title mentioned.. I've been doing nothing but designs which is rather disturbing. 
I thought I was a business student... work appears to be more than that. haha. Not to mention the interior design IS elective module that I'm taking now. TT-TT

Just yesterday, I did a retail model in sketchup for my BMM project 1. It wasn't a compulsory component.. but we decided to add it into our presentation anyway in hope to "wow" the audience while at it.
And I spent half of today designing the floor plan for my elective group assignment. 

Office Space Planning aka. Floor Plan

Life since school began is beginning to get a little scary. The converging of deadlines + presentations + tests.. all  in a month. Regardless, I'll probably still somehow survive it.. and move on till graduation. It always happens that way, isn't it? (= The only thing that is giving me the motivation to persevere on... is probably the very fact that everything is coming to an end soon. - My three full years of polytechnic education.. [Though if I do get myself into a university, it could be far worst than whatever I'm experiencing now. (x]

Ah.. its midnight. Should perhaps start studying for MRSH test.. (3 days left till the test!)
Anyway, to all fellow final-year students... persevere on & run the last 100m with pride & glory! 頑張ります！

Happy 2013!

It's three hours & thirty minutes past midnight! (GMT +8) Happy 2013 Everyone! 
As mentioned in one of the recent posts... A new blogskin to welcome the brand new year! (=^w^=)

Here's wishing all.. a blissful, meaningful & healthy 2013! 
:\Happy New Year! Omedetou Gozaimasu! Chukahae!/: