Stressed.. Mid-year Exam schedule is out.. :

Wednesday, 30th April - A.maths & History
Friday, 2nd May - English Paper 1 & 2
Monday, 5th May - Social Studies & Chinese Paper 1
Tuesday, 6th May - Maths Paper 2 & Pure Chemistry
Wednesday, 7th May - English Paper 3 & Chinese Paper 2
Thursday, 8th May - Maths Paper 1 & Pure Physics

The Biology students have Pure Biology on the 9th of May.. I wonder if i really dun have to come school that day. :]

Anyway.. I'll be free after the 8th! 5 days of holiday before coming back to school on the 14th for the review of the examinations paper.. :(

Today was the Second History Test.. One SEQ and one Usefulness question.. I had forgotten about the world war factor.. Im gonna be so dead. :(

Was feeling sleepy for the whole day.. Maybe because i gotten the flu bug.. =.= Been sniffing away since yesterday.. So irritated.. During history i practically stuffed the tissue into my nose.. I lost my sense of taste.. Everything seems so bland to me..

I've gotten used to being alone.. Though the feeling is unbearable.. Like as though nobody wants to be my friend.. Just like how miserable i felt when yujun said she wanna change her place[which is beside me] because its too quiet and she cannot concentrate.. I felt so upset and kinda angry. She was so determined to change her place from me. Oh well... =.=

I miss 2e4. If e4 had continued to remain together.. I wonder wad will be happening.. 4 Months since e4 has separated.. I still remember how much i hated 1e4.. How much i wanted to change class in sec 1. But i grew to love e4 so much. :) But now e4 is like strangers to be. Other than Jingling they all.. The rest all seem so distant. Its all in the past now.. wads left is the memories and the future.. Isn it?

Its been 2 years and 4 months since I've seen Xin Hwei..
It's been 8 Years since I've seen my kindergarten pal, wing ting.
It's been 7 years since I've seen my swimming pal, crystal.
I wonder how much they all have changed.. Or do they even remember me?

I wan go play le.. Before i start dozing off.. haha.. So.. Ta-Ta.. :)

Its a Saturday! 5 days since i blogged? Today i saw the aftermath of a car accident.. The "green man" light the glass shattered... All on the pathway.. Haha.. Oh well.. Playing Big 2.5 on viwawa.. So.. No time blog. No time post pictures.. =) tata

Its the annual Hai Experiential Week.. This year.. No camp. To think i had looked forward to this with my hopes dashed.

Today.. Many activities.. Blind maze which i din take part in. The hai towers which my class skipped.. The haider web.. The longest human chain.. The human tanglement.. Haiz.. nt gonna blog abt that.

Well.. after school.. Me, Huimin, Tatiana, Letitia, Cheryl, Esther and Kristin went to pasir ris park to cycle.. [they wanted to skate.. but too bad.. nt opened. :D]

Pictures..... LOL. [*dun kill me for putting it here* :D]

Discussing where to go? haha.

Letitia and me were at the beach.. Whereas the others were somewhere.. else...

Am i kinda lame? haha :) still have lehz..

Yes.. maybe i am. wahahaha :D

Thats when it was 5. haha

Then, Letitia and me decided to play at the playground for a tiny little while... haha.. We had fun actually.. :D Deprived childhood? LOL.

On the way HOME.....

Lolz.. I look like a ghost. :D

Candid Pictures? With Kristin and Huimin walking behind. haha

LOL.. The last photo for today's post.. :D

Its getting late now.. =) So i shall go dig out my digital camera for tomorrow's project 'i' experiments.. LOL.. If not.. Huimin is so gonna kill me.. =) Byes.

I finally understand that the cause of my loneliness is myself.

Nobody is pushing me away.. Im the one pulling myself away.

First was Dominic.. I was walking alone to Whitesands.. By right, i should follow them along since he asked me to. But i chose to keep quiet and walk alone.

Then.. at the mrt platform.. I saw Nicole Teo.. Since both of us were alone.. shouldn't i have gone up to her and say Hi? Yet.. i walked further away from her..

Wad is wrong wif me? I had been the one saying i was lonely. I was the one whom said i could not make any frenz. Yet i was wrong. Totally wrong. I can make friends wif anyone. I can talk to anyone. If only i am willing to make the first step.. If only i initiate a conversation with the people surrounding me.

Im so dumb. who could be more dumb then me? I guess Karkit was right then.. Im stupid. I had not chosen the wrong name for my e4 class tee - Stupidity.
Yea.. that word sure defines me well..

Crap Crap Crap!

Wad am I? A ball? Being thrown around to groups whom doesn't want me as a member. Its just a stupid project for goodness sake.

Wad the.. Trying to throw me to a group for 7 guys? While the other 7 gals wan Jasper as their member? I dun wan a group. I dun need one. Even better! Dun have to do some crap project that is so dumb.

Hate being in e2. It's exactly the same thing happening when i was in sec 1.. I hated 1e4'06. But i grew to love the class so much that i dreaded the day when all e4-rians were separated. I had thought being in secondary three will be better than in secondary 1. However it doesn't seem that way?

I miss being in the same class as Jingling, Boon fang, Kristin, Esther, Hawa, Tatiana and Cheryl. I dun have to miss Hui min since she's in the same class as me. I remember how we always gathered at Boon fang's corner and chatted.. Laughing and Playing.

Well.. At least we're still going to recess together.. =)

Gotta prepare for tuition now. There's D-Gray Man TODAY!!! 11PM @ Arts Central. =)
Cant wait to see ALLEN, KANDA, LAVI, KRORY and LENALEE later on the TV. LOL.
Im going crazy over the Anime. =) Dun Mind ME. It's the only thing that keeps me from being pissed.

Being Emotional isn't good? Yeh.. I agree on that. But somehow.. I cant be happy. No. I can be truly happy IF i want to. I know that deep down.. Whats this empty feeling within me? Always longing and seeking for someone.. To stop emo-in [before kor kills me].. Lets change subj.. =)









I was eating fish crackers..
[see, i like to eat junk ;D]
And i came across this one...










My new wooden models?
haha.. My dream house?
Umph.. Due to laziness...
And my love for swimming..
I prefer condos.. HAHA











Is this a car? Umph....
This Isn't my dream car..
But i thought the model is kinda
.... .... Cute? :D









The books I've been searching for!
Velvet Song And Velvet Promise.
story on the first and third brothers.
The second is Highland Velvet
The last bk is Velvet Angel.
Im in love with the four bks. =)









Walking down the memory lane?
gosh.. i look like a freak. :D
Able to tell who i am?
Doubt it.. haha. so small.. how to see? :D










The sunset is beautiful...
Is sunrise the same?
I gazed at the sky..
with thoughts in my mind..













My Kawaii Piglet!
I cant live a day without seeing it.
Im just kidding.
But i like piglets. =)
Well.. im insane. xD

Okay.. Im done with the day's post.. Yawns.. Im dead tired..
Good Night Everyone. AND sleep tight. Dun let the bed bugs bite.. Sweet dreams. xD
IM LAME! Zzz.. Zzz.. Zzz.. Zzz.. Zzz.. Zzz.. Zzz.. Zzz.. Zzz.. Zzz.. Zzz..

Ok, Replies to tags:
Samantha:I noe.. :( But still.. Haizz... the feeling is.... strange.
Sihan: Umph? okay.......... Zzz... Zzz.. thats lame? haha

Whats the point of getting into the class that i always wanted to go to.. when the person i want isn't there?

Whats the point of getting the subject combination that i want.. when i cant do well in it?

Whats the point of having new classmates when we're gonna separate anyway?

Whats the point of streaming when we're all gonna take 'o' levels anyway?

Whats the point of living when we're all gonna die one day?

Am i being emotional again?

Why do i always have this sad feeling within me? Is it loneliness?

Nobody understands me. Nobody cares.. I think if one day i die.. nobody except my family and close friends will care.

Sian.. So emotional.. dun even feel like bloggin liao. Anyway aso nobody will see.