Growing up - A process I'm not enjoying.
To be honest, I really dislike the life I'm having now. I don't want to stay out all day just because a perf. is round the corner. I want time to myself. A lot of time to myself. To just be at home, listening to my mum nag away about her colleagues, surfing the net. School doesn't permit a schedule that I can head home in time for lunch with my mum. The only comfort is that I'm going home immediately after school everyday.
Just because I'm in a committee, I promised to give it a try? I'm such a contradiction. I promised myself over and over again to quit asap, I even sent the e-mail out stating I am leaving, felt so proud of myself only to find myself trapped again just because my kind & sweet senior spoke to me on msn. I even cried.
& I'm now a very unhappy person. thank you. I have no one else to blame. Should have been firm on my decision. How could I have wavered. I'm an idiot. ):
Monday, 27 December 2010
Sunday, 26 December 2010
Xmas came & went... It's now time to look forward to the new year 2011 ^-^
Met up with the e4 clique last Sunday, didn't stay that long. Went Skating the next day with ah min. (:
Upcoming events,
27th - Project =_=
30th - meet up with the e2 clique [HIGHLIGHT: STACEY~ ^-^]
31st - may meet up with lenis & jingyi? or maybe des & sk? or maybe just alone @ home. ?_?
ah~ new theme for my blog [winter! (:]!
btw, my LJ is now officially the place for my v6 fandom while Twitter & Tumblr are for my randomness.
Perhaps occasional V6 fandom will appear here. well, my life is pretty made up of school, home, internet & v6 right? LOL~! ^-^
Met up with the e4 clique last Sunday, didn't stay that long. Went Skating the next day with ah min. (:
Upcoming events,
27th - Project =_=
30th - meet up with the e2 clique [HIGHLIGHT: STACEY~ ^-^]
31st - may meet up with lenis & jingyi? or maybe des & sk? or maybe just alone @ home. ?_?
ah~ new theme for my blog [winter! (:]!
btw, my LJ is now officially the place for my v6 fandom while Twitter & Tumblr are for my randomness.
Perhaps occasional V6 fandom will appear here. well, my life is pretty made up of school, home, internet & v6 right? LOL~! ^-^
Sunday, 19 December 2010
Stayed overnight at downtown east chalet for the first time [w/o family members]!!
The V6 SilentGalaxy [SG] Fan Club Chalet Xmas Gathering! x)
Had a great time drooling over Felly's & Peiwen's collection. Not to mention that VERY EXTREMELY KAWAII photo of MIYAKE in the Voyager Photobook that Felly had. >< *should have taken a picture with him!!!! >-<*
Anyway, I recently created a Tumblr account.
So pictures, from now on, shall be posted there. ^-^
http://starz04.tumblr.com/
Ta-da, the link, though I don't think anyone will bother lurh. haha! (:
Finally the holidays are here. though its only the mid-sem break and there are tons of tutorials plus revision to do.., I guess it won't hurt relaxing a little here & there. :x heh. ^-^
*drained from the chalet* slept only at 5 a.m this morning. then woke up at 8.30 to prepare for checkout.
heh. 休みます！
The V6 SilentGalaxy [SG] Fan Club Chalet Xmas Gathering! x)
Had a great time drooling over Felly's & Peiwen's collection. Not to mention that VERY EXTREMELY KAWAII photo of MIYAKE in the Voyager Photobook that Felly had. >< *should have taken a picture with him!!!! >-<*
Anyway, I recently created a Tumblr account.
So pictures, from now on, shall be posted there. ^-^
http://starz04.tumblr.com/
Ta-da, the link, though I don't think anyone will bother lurh. haha! (:
Finally the holidays are here. though its only the mid-sem break and there are tons of tutorials plus revision to do.., I guess it won't hurt relaxing a little here & there. :x heh. ^-^
*drained from the chalet* slept only at 5 a.m this morning. then woke up at 8.30 to prepare for checkout.
heh. 休みます！
Thursday, 9 December 2010
The presentations and project work for this term have finally come to an end. ^-^ hurray!
Now is time to focus on the CTs. Then it'll be the break!
I must remember to make xmas gifts & cards. haha~
The day after CTs would be the chalet! Gotta plan, plan & plan!
Been a crazy week with the ITB & OBSE presentations as well as the meeting's assessment [I was the chairperson. *sighs*].. LOL~ There's finally news from the Shanghai OIP trip facilitator.
The shortlisted & selected candidates would be informed around the end of December.
Hopefully.. I can be one of those to go. In the event that I am not selected, I will make use of the holidays to.. learn driving. x)
Haven't started on CT revisions. First paper is ITB! gosh.
Today is reserved for Jap. tomorrow night would be 'ITB party night'. Have to make it sound as interesting as possible so I will look forward to it. A date with ITB e-book & lecture notes.
On Saturday have to entertain my baby - Bstats Textbook.
haix. busy larh. Now need to call my Jap Notes and talk to it the rest of the night. (Y)
=3=
Now is time to focus on the CTs. Then it'll be the break!
I must remember to make xmas gifts & cards. haha~
The day after CTs would be the chalet! Gotta plan, plan & plan!
Been a crazy week with the ITB & OBSE presentations as well as the meeting's assessment [I was the chairperson. *sighs*].. LOL~ There's finally news from the Shanghai OIP trip facilitator.
The shortlisted & selected candidates would be informed around the end of December.
Hopefully.. I can be one of those to go. In the event that I am not selected, I will make use of the holidays to.. learn driving. x)
Haven't started on CT revisions. First paper is ITB! gosh.
Today is reserved for Jap. tomorrow night would be 'ITB party night'. Have to make it sound as interesting as possible so I will look forward to it. A date with ITB e-book & lecture notes.
On Saturday have to entertain my baby - Bstats Textbook.
haix. busy larh. Now need to call my Jap Notes and talk to it the rest of the night. (Y)
=3=
Sunday, 5 December 2010
Its been a crazy crazy week. It still is. ):
ITB project is consuming too much of my time, my tutorials are not done [have to get it done asap since I need time to study CT!]
Doing Jap homework now. I really don't want to fail Jap. T.T
Can't wait for the 2 weeks break after the CTs. I'm exhausted.
I just need some time to pamper myself. so. I decided not to go for BAMP. although it sounds fun, I just want and need some time alone. Doing what I want and what I like. ^-^
My poly clique has always been broken into 2 groups. from next year on, I doubt we will continue being one. lol~
Icen & Ziyan has chosen to take FIT whereas me & jaws took IEF. so, it's confirmed that we would be different classes.
oh no~ its 1142. ): *sighs*
ITB project is consuming too much of my time, my tutorials are not done [have to get it done asap since I need time to study CT!]
Doing Jap homework now. I really don't want to fail Jap. T.T
Can't wait for the 2 weeks break after the CTs. I'm exhausted.
I just need some time to pamper myself. so. I decided not to go for BAMP. although it sounds fun, I just want and need some time alone. Doing what I want and what I like. ^-^
My poly clique has always been broken into 2 groups. from next year on, I doubt we will continue being one. lol~
Icen & Ziyan has chosen to take FIT whereas me & jaws took IEF. so, it's confirmed that we would be different classes.
oh no~ its 1142. ): *sighs*
Friday, 26 November 2010
Today is a IS day~ Every Friday is.
I'm down with a bad throat.. which is turning into a cough. T.T
In fact, I've been coughing. ):
Today had dinner with my 2 sisters at Changi Airport TCC. [Jie fu back in SG after school trip to perth]
Jap ended early today. Kana Sensei had something on, so ended an hour earlier.
=3= not having a very smooth time with project work. ):
Have a lot of things to complete tmr & Sunday before school resumes as per normal again. ^-^
I'm down with a bad throat.. which is turning into a cough. T.T
In fact, I've been coughing. ):
Today had dinner with my 2 sisters at Changi Airport TCC. [Jie fu back in SG after school trip to perth]
Jap ended early today. Kana Sensei had something on, so ended an hour earlier.
=3= not having a very smooth time with project work. ):
Have a lot of things to complete tmr & Sunday before school resumes as per normal again. ^-^
Tuesday, 23 November 2010
min changed her blogskin~ Went to read her past posts from when we first knew each other.. memorable indeed.. In the first few years.. I can see my name on most of the posts.. haha~
Its so interesting to just stop and look into the past again.
How our thinkings matured, to remember the fun past that we had once forgotten.
I wonder what happened to me along those years.
Have I matured or it is just that I decided to avoid certain things.
Have I became a nicer person. or Have I just made myself vulnerable to the world.
Suddenly, I'm thrown into an adult world.. expectations of people from me, what I can or cannot do, consideration, responsibility, the cruel world. [its either you're in, or out.]
All these months of trying to transform myself into a good friend. Someone who is understanding. Someone who is there to listen to people. Is that good or bad.
I read a classmate's status on facebook the other day:
We behave differently when with different group of friends, not because we're acting or we are fake. We just have different comfort zone with different group of friends.
It feels true. haha.
I used to think that I'm well-liked. but early this year I realised, its not that I am well-liked.. its just that people don't bother. then I realise now that, I may not be someone whom is well-liked.. I can be someone who is being hated too. the world is interesting isn't it. (:
Its so interesting to just stop and look into the past again.
How our thinkings matured, to remember the fun past that we had once forgotten.
I wonder what happened to me along those years.
Have I matured or it is just that I decided to avoid certain things.
Have I became a nicer person. or Have I just made myself vulnerable to the world.
Suddenly, I'm thrown into an adult world.. expectations of people from me, what I can or cannot do, consideration, responsibility, the cruel world. [its either you're in, or out.]
All these months of trying to transform myself into a good friend. Someone who is understanding. Someone who is there to listen to people. Is that good or bad.
I read a classmate's status on facebook the other day:
We behave differently when with different group of friends, not because we're acting or we are fake. We just have different comfort zone with different group of friends.
It feels true. haha.
I used to think that I'm well-liked. but early this year I realised, its not that I am well-liked.. its just that people don't bother. then I realise now that, I may not be someone whom is well-liked.. I can be someone who is being hated too. the world is interesting isn't it. (: