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Emo-ing In Progress...

I'm starting to wonder if my life have anything interesting to it..
Maybe.. I'm just a dull, smart-looking but dumb girl.
Romance in Drama serials don't happen real life.. Maybe once in a blue moon. I mean.. People don't undergo those near-die situation whereby you'll swear to cherish one another till the day we part..

I know exactly what type of person I am.
2 years ago.. Huimin said something about me.. which.. I'm finally accepting..
I'm probably a very gullible person.. I trust people too easily I guess.. :D
Just like how my mum tells me that a very bad guy is working as one of my colleagues and that I must beware.. I still feel that there is nothing wrong about that guy..

Anyway.. Will I even be able to find someone who will be there for me always.. looking out for me in every way he can.. care for me.. maybe someone who is a little chi dun.. (guys who are does extravagant things are usually playboys)
Someone who has eyes only for me will be nice.. haha. (In my dreams I guess)

I'm too quiet.. too not-sociable.. maybe I can be gong-gong 5 alrdy.. (only Madeline, Liting, Muihwa, Alvin, Weizhe and Zihao will noe the joke.)

Sometimes. when I see my friends going out for gatherings.. taking lots of pictures.. doing all sort of fun things together.. I long to be with them and be like them.. But I know.. If I really went for the gathering.. I would be the one.. choosing to be apart from all of them.. following them behind.. leaving early.. -( It happened too many times for me to know wad I'm like when I'm out with a group of people..)
I'm envious.. seeing how my primary school ex-classmates took 100+ pictures with each other.. doing funny actions.. They invited me.. But I was working..
Even if I wasn't working.. I'll might not go either.. since I know.. I'm just an invisible sheet.. They are just being courteous to ask me along..

Maybe my life was a failure.. Maybe I'll never find that perfect one for me..
But.. At least in my life.. I made two extremely good friends from each phase in terms of education.. Thank you to both of you for making my life feel less pathetic.. (there are many more.. but this two are the most xtreme ones.. :) )
Yang Xi Qing & Hui Min.. will never forget u guys..

I take back my words from last time..
Alvin & Weizhe aren't all that bad.. haha..
The three of them can become 'Alvin & the chipmunks.. ' - The aunties' favourite people in CNSQ. haha.

- Emo time ended -

Wonder why I feel so sad today..