I wonder wad is wrong with me..

Its freaking difficult to open my darn mouth.
Jeffrey (CNSQ) told us to choose our own paths wisely.. Not to follow our friends for the sake of company.. but to follow wad we really want to do.. It is afterall.. Our future..
He also said that we should make something out of ourselves.. If you keep following your friends.. You'll just be known as so and so's friend.. (His words struck me hard.. )

I'm always just a shadow of others.. a supporting actress in others' life..
Its time for me to train to be a main lead.. But how?

Madeline is leaving on the 26th of Jan.. (she applied for JC)
Then I'm gonna lose e rest of my colleagues in 2 months time..
Liting, Alvin, Zihao & Weizhe..
I hoped to know all of them better.. But with my personality.. Haix
Went for lunch with Alvin & Weizhe the day before yesterday.. I barely spoke..
Only listened to them talk about their friends.. (while looking at them both intently :P)

I'm quite sad that they are aiming for TP.. which means.. I'm definitely not gonna be in the same school as them. Haix..

Hopefully.. I'll make use of this 2 precious months to know them better.. but with madeline off to studies.. It'll be hard.. She's our bridge.. ):

I wish. I hope. I pray.