I feel kinda lonely.. Lonely in the sense that.. I am constantly seeking attention from my friends and never the other way round. Sometimes even I myself feel tat I'm being a pest and maybe they dun really wan to waste their time talking to me.
There are times where I wonder if my presence mean anything to anyone... (probably NO ONE in HaiSing I guess, maybe except Huimin, Fuxi & Sinyi lurhh)
Yesterday, went to parkway to meet my grp. When I reached the destination.. I didn't bother telling them that I reached. I waited & waited.. seeing if they would ask where I was.. I was alrdy half an hour late. & nth came.. Throughout I was wondering why I went in the first place.
Afterwhich.. I realised.. hey.. Charlene asked if I was going and Jiahui gave me a missed call.. small actions.. but somehow.. I was happy. dumb thing to be happy about.. I know.. After that when I left earlier.. Charlene offered to bring me to the bus-stop.. (i told her nt to since it was quite far away (: ) she helped me checked the buses nearby.. and asked me to call her if anything comes up.. I felt cared for.. heh. Jia hui, on the other hand, is very cute & enthu. :D The reason why I decided to go in the end was because of her.. hahax.
Oh well. Its my last weekend before I start being in the west most of my time. Haix