A close relative passed away in her sleep this morning - my ah-mm.
Walking out of the bathroom, seeing my big sister's red eyes.. I knew something was wrong.
When she cried while telling me the news.. I didn't know how to react. Not because I was too stunned, but because my sis was crying and I did not know who exactly she was talking about. I couldn't even recollect how my ah mm looked like.

I'm a sinner for not knowing my own relatives.
When Tati's mum passed on, tears couldn't stop flowing.. yet my own blood-related ah mm. I had no emotions.
I feel so fake..

I wonder if heaven would forgive me. Judging that I never really had the chance to know them better. Or maybe I had, just that my two sisters were closer. My eldest sis was taken care of by her when she was young. Am I trying to console my pathetic self? ):