mEi booked a chalet for the weekend, went to stay over on the first night.
Jiefu & her planning is great manz.. 3 pathetic people bbq-ing only. =.=" LOL~ but it was great.
It was afterall, the first chalet that I actually stayed over. (:

Looking back, I don't have much close friends. lol.
There isn't anyone else to blame other than myself. I chose to be quiet isn't it?
Always hoping that someone could understand me inside out.
Hoping that someone could tell what I was thinking or feeling with one look in my eyes.
I don't think its possible though.

I chose to be the insignificant one, relying on others to bridge the gap between me & other people.

I, myself, don't even try to talk to others, who am I to wish that others could try to talk to me right?
I'm such a dreamer.
In Daiko, without Shi Ning around, I feel so awkward and uncomfortable with the others. Just like strangers.
In Hai Sing, without Hui Min, its the same thing.
In TB26, I haven even found a bridge to anything.

I'm such a failure in life isn't it? Too much reliance on others.
What am I supposed to do?
Can anyone actually tell me?

Whenever I ask, people will just say, Just open ur mouth and talk larh. Anything also can. so difficult meh?
说得容易，but to me, its an uphill task.
I'm careful with my words cuz I'm scared of offending people.
There are times when I have a lot of things to talk to people, but sometimes 就是很多话说说不出口。

*sighs* ):