I used to be very proud being in JTC - Taiko.
It seems my interest really died off eh? It is now nothing but an obligation.

The feeling is now insufferable.
... Unless I can truly tell everyone what I feel.. I can never lead a happy poly life.

Icen and Ziyan are truly awesome friends. Really.. But I always felt lonely with them. Afterall.. they always decide certain things and do things together.
I don't really anticipate being in the same class as them again. I had hoped someone could understand me. I haven worked with Jaws but somehow.. I feel I can trust her enough. But I can't bring myself to tell her things.

How am I supposed to tell her I had purposely forgone the zoo excursion? How am I supposed to say that I don't want to be in the same class as the other two? How am I supposed to tell her everything? I'm scared.

Same goes for my cca.. how am I supposed to tell Shining that I lost interest in the CCA and I no longer want to attend the trainings? I miss badminton. I was never meant for some cultural CCA. I never appreciated the culture and arts anyway. My first semester is totally screwed up. how?!?!