"how's life?" "uh.. liddat lor"

Every gathering/catch-up session with friends... this question is bound to emerge: "so... how's life?" 
I seem to have reached the age where all your guy friends would be talking about 'Army', 'Enlistment', 'POP', 'ORD'.. etc.. etc... and all your girl friends... 'University', 'Work', 'Colleagues'... you get the drift... 

My answer to that question would always be... 'huh.. like that lor.' in a typical SGrean slang.. AKA Singlish. 

Being neither here nor there... honestly, there isn't much I can talk about these days... I'm neither in the army... nor am I accepted into the Universities.. 'Sandwich' would be the best word to describe my life, for now. Frustration... Anxiety... Envy... Just losing hope in general.

My heart feels so burdened these days.. I don't want to think nor talk about it.. not at all.. but my personality disallows that. Till the day I receive something from SMU or Uni of Melb... Till the day I find another temp job. Till the day I solve my own financial crisis.. till... forever. My mind never seem to stop thinking. If only there was a switch off button in the system. 

I am in need of closure. There are too many things going on.. I just can't seem to relax and just go with the flow. If only... somebody could give me an answer to all these questions... If only...