Im feeling quite down these days. somehow i feel so extra in everything. I feel so useless. During recess i go tag along with the whole grp. Yet.. I feel so extra among them. They talk among themselves. I feel so weird to barge in. My studies is in a mess. The maths test was horrible. The physics OPEN BOOK test i failed. Wad worst can it be? My life is in a mess as well. Im drinking Strawberry Milk every single recess and lunch. Im not doing my maths homework. Im not adapting to e2. I have no mood to study. Wads wrong wif me? I dun wan to be an extra. Do people hate me so much? I wanted to Let wanping sit with cheryl during history lesson. Then yunxun came and i seem to be the extra between him and wanping. Next time.. i shall sit right at the side alone. Lidat i wun be extra to anyone and they all can sit wif whoever they like. If im extra say so ma. i move lo. I very sad lor. its like totally loner can? I find myself getting quieter and quieter. I guess i have become such a bore. Im such a useless person. Even if wan tok to someone.. i must think for a few days before finally opening my stupid mouth to initiate the conference. To ask joyce's bday.. i took 1 week to think about how to ask. ... ... ... why am i lidat? Haiz. :( Why am i always so shy when it comes to a new class? Why do i always open up when everyone is about to separate? WHY?! T.T